I went to see Mum again yesterday and the changes are dramatic. I was only with her two days ago and whilst her speech was still slurred she was in part with me. I think she is losing her fight for life. She is sleeping most of the time, not taking food or drink (well only small amount through a syringe), restless, confused and really not recognising folk. I have sat with her holding her hand, talking to her about nothing really, and wishing that she would just go to sleep and not wake up and she would then be out of all the grips of this evil disease. The Home are being wonderful and keeping her comfortable and are attentive to her needsand really I couldn't wish for anything more.
Just when I had booked a holiday for some R & R this happens and I am now in a quandry as to whether to go or stay. If I stay the inevitable could happen, if I go away the scenario is the same and I could come home and she would still be in the same state. I know that only me can make that decision and my philosphy is that if I go away I can always come back but am I right to do that - I just don't know !!!
Just when I had booked a holiday for some R & R this happens and I am now in a quandry as to whether to go or stay. If I stay the inevitable could happen, if I go away the scenario is the same and I could come home and she would still be in the same state. I know that only me can make that decision and my philosphy is that if I go away I can always come back but am I right to do that - I just don't know !!!