Well today was a bad one again, it seems to be a pattern right now, hardly a decent day at all lately.
It was lunch club day and after much chat last night stating that i would waken her, mother still got up at 7.15am, i had set the alarm at 8.30am hoping to try and rest a little.
She woke me then and i asked her to go back to bed, which she didnt, anyway i refused to get up until around 8.30, i just lay and watched the news.
Then knocks on door and calling for me to get up, which i did. Wish I hadnt!
Found her dressed in her cropped summer linen trousers, socks and her arthritic shoes, with a brand new blouse on, which i had put in her holiday cupboard for the holidays. It would be nice for her to have some clothing without food marks down them!
I asked her if she would change and explained that the trousers werent warm enough, (its very bitter right now here), and the blouse wasnt practical for the lunch club. Off she went in a huff.
I had already stated that i would look out her clothes for her, or help what ever she wanted, but no that wasnt good enough.
I then asked her why she was up so early, well i have to get breakfast at the club, i said yes but thats not until 10am, no no its 9am i have to be there!
I then asked her if she had her lunchtime tablets that i gave her the night before in the container in her bag, yes she brings it out with a massive amount of other tablets in the container!!!!
What are all those other tablets in there for? I ask. Well i have to take my tablets with breakfast, was the answer, i said i agree but you take them before we go out and then within 7-10 minutes you have breakfast at the club. Well i will take them when i get there, i said you cant as you have your lunchtime ones there aswell.
She says i know what ones to take! no you dont i'm sorry. I then had to go and work out all the little white ones so that she could take them, but while doing this i fell apart in the kitchen, and sat on the floor screaming, not just crying but really screaming, i have never done this in my life before, and all i got from the other room was stop making all that noise and whats the problem, which seemed to make me worse and i screamed even more.
It must have taken me over 15 minutes to pull myself together to sort out tablets, and all through this episode, mother sat saying hurry up i am going to be late!
She just couldnt understand, which i know she cant but it seems such a turnaround since even last week, i think she may have had another mini stroke as her whole being has gone down hill!
I took her down to the centre, and the manager caught me and said could i have a word, and i thought oh no what now?!!?!?!?
She took me to a side room, felt like going to the headmasters room!
OK whats the matter, i was like what, what do you mean?
YOU LOOK TERRIBLE, whats going on!
I explained what had happened and within a few minutes she turned round and said well would another day help and give you some more space, i can place mother in here tomorrow (thursday), if thats a help, i said that would be great, she said then, but not just tomorrow permanently Wednesday and Thursdays!
Ok its more expense but right now its worth it, although i am not sure of 2 mornings of her getting up at the crack of dawn episodes either.
Anyway not sure what else i can say but i am ok, and hope that all others are to.
Hugs and love to all,
xxxx
It was lunch club day and after much chat last night stating that i would waken her, mother still got up at 7.15am, i had set the alarm at 8.30am hoping to try and rest a little.
She woke me then and i asked her to go back to bed, which she didnt, anyway i refused to get up until around 8.30, i just lay and watched the news.
Then knocks on door and calling for me to get up, which i did. Wish I hadnt!
Found her dressed in her cropped summer linen trousers, socks and her arthritic shoes, with a brand new blouse on, which i had put in her holiday cupboard for the holidays. It would be nice for her to have some clothing without food marks down them!
I asked her if she would change and explained that the trousers werent warm enough, (its very bitter right now here), and the blouse wasnt practical for the lunch club. Off she went in a huff.
I had already stated that i would look out her clothes for her, or help what ever she wanted, but no that wasnt good enough.
I then asked her why she was up so early, well i have to get breakfast at the club, i said yes but thats not until 10am, no no its 9am i have to be there!
I then asked her if she had her lunchtime tablets that i gave her the night before in the container in her bag, yes she brings it out with a massive amount of other tablets in the container!!!!
What are all those other tablets in there for? I ask. Well i have to take my tablets with breakfast, was the answer, i said i agree but you take them before we go out and then within 7-10 minutes you have breakfast at the club. Well i will take them when i get there, i said you cant as you have your lunchtime ones there aswell.
She says i know what ones to take! no you dont i'm sorry. I then had to go and work out all the little white ones so that she could take them, but while doing this i fell apart in the kitchen, and sat on the floor screaming, not just crying but really screaming, i have never done this in my life before, and all i got from the other room was stop making all that noise and whats the problem, which seemed to make me worse and i screamed even more.
It must have taken me over 15 minutes to pull myself together to sort out tablets, and all through this episode, mother sat saying hurry up i am going to be late!
She just couldnt understand, which i know she cant but it seems such a turnaround since even last week, i think she may have had another mini stroke as her whole being has gone down hill!
I took her down to the centre, and the manager caught me and said could i have a word, and i thought oh no what now?!!?!?!?
She took me to a side room, felt like going to the headmasters room!
OK whats the matter, i was like what, what do you mean?
YOU LOOK TERRIBLE, whats going on!
I explained what had happened and within a few minutes she turned round and said well would another day help and give you some more space, i can place mother in here tomorrow (thursday), if thats a help, i said that would be great, she said then, but not just tomorrow permanently Wednesday and Thursdays!
Ok its more expense but right now its worth it, although i am not sure of 2 mornings of her getting up at the crack of dawn episodes either.
Anyway not sure what else i can say but i am ok, and hope that all others are to.
Hugs and love to all,
xxxx