My mum had another TIA ( think thats what it is called ) today, she had one last week as well. When I went to see her she is liek a skeleton, eyes glazed and just no knowledge of me or anthing around her.
She is getting weaker and weaker and expecting any time now to be told she will be permently in bed, at minute the home gets her up and she lies down in afternoon.
She looked like a corpse today and I acually wished it was over for her,my brother went to see her and his wife told me he has said the same, he also wishs it was over for her.
Are we being selfish ?
I love her but she is no longer there, has not been for 3 years now and 18months ago she was so ill hospital said if her heart stopped they felt it best not to resusitate her , she is still with us. She is a fighter, she weighs about 6 stone if even that and knows nothing. She is fighting to stay alive and I just want her to let go.
I am sitting here crying while writing this, maybe it will be tonight, maybe in a year , maybe in 2. My sister in laws father has cancer and has a year at the most, I told her she is so lucky, she has a year to say goodbye, to do things and know his suffering will be over, we do not have that with mum, we just keep hanging on.
sorry for sounding so selfish
She is getting weaker and weaker and expecting any time now to be told she will be permently in bed, at minute the home gets her up and she lies down in afternoon.
She looked like a corpse today and I acually wished it was over for her,my brother went to see her and his wife told me he has said the same, he also wishs it was over for her.
Are we being selfish ?
I love her but she is no longer there, has not been for 3 years now and 18months ago she was so ill hospital said if her heart stopped they felt it best not to resusitate her , she is still with us. She is a fighter, she weighs about 6 stone if even that and knows nothing. She is fighting to stay alive and I just want her to let go.
I am sitting here crying while writing this, maybe it will be tonight, maybe in a year , maybe in 2. My sister in laws father has cancer and has a year at the most, I told her she is so lucky, she has a year to say goodbye, to do things and know his suffering will be over, we do not have that with mum, we just keep hanging on.
sorry for sounding so selfish