I want to start by saying thankyou for taking the time to read this thread. there are so many heartbreaking threads here and the fact that you have taken time to read this one humbles me beyond words.
this post will probably be a ramble- i appologise for the lack of structure. i really need to vent as i find it so hard to discuss these issues with my friends and other family members. when i talk with friends i always block things out with humour, yet when im on my own i cry and cry. somehow writing things down seems so much easier.
my dad, 56, was diagnosed with alzheimers two days ago. he had been gradually been declining over the past 2 years and the change in him is heartbreaking. there is one thing thats bitter sweet in the sense that my dad doesnt seem to know that anythngs wrong- he was diagnosed on friday the 19th and on the 20th he had no recollection of any diagnosis.
i'm in my first year at university and living three/four hours away from home in term time. i feel so guilty for not being home to help; needless to say my dad cant work any more, and my mum has switched to working at home and will soon have to go part time. financial situations are difficult. i cant think of any justifiable reasons to continue at university where i am an extra burden, when i could be helping at home financially, emotionally and physically.
i hope this hasnt come across selfish and self absorbed. i love my dad more than i can put across in words and i know this is about him much more than it should be myself.
thankyou for reading this. my thoughts are with all of you
-tony.
this post will probably be a ramble- i appologise for the lack of structure. i really need to vent as i find it so hard to discuss these issues with my friends and other family members. when i talk with friends i always block things out with humour, yet when im on my own i cry and cry. somehow writing things down seems so much easier.
my dad, 56, was diagnosed with alzheimers two days ago. he had been gradually been declining over the past 2 years and the change in him is heartbreaking. there is one thing thats bitter sweet in the sense that my dad doesnt seem to know that anythngs wrong- he was diagnosed on friday the 19th and on the 20th he had no recollection of any diagnosis.
i'm in my first year at university and living three/four hours away from home in term time. i feel so guilty for not being home to help; needless to say my dad cant work any more, and my mum has switched to working at home and will soon have to go part time. financial situations are difficult. i cant think of any justifiable reasons to continue at university where i am an extra burden, when i could be helping at home financially, emotionally and physically.
i hope this hasnt come across selfish and self absorbed. i love my dad more than i can put across in words and i know this is about him much more than it should be myself.
thankyou for reading this. my thoughts are with all of you
-tony.