I am struggling so much to get motivated to do anything ....... it occurred to me today this is the first time in more than 15/16years I haven't had some 'caring capacity' .... and from juggling more balls than I thought was possible over those years I have none ....
Other than going to work (P/T) and bits of housework (even the paperwork is dwindling now I am no longer EPA and Probate is finally rattling through) I have no reason to do anything .... I have gone from running on adrenaline at a million miles an hour to this ..... ?
Yes, there are a million things I COULD be doing, but I don't have to anymore .......... with mum and dad now gone, hubby, thank God, in remission and my son suddenly turned into a pretty independent young man overnight it seems, I feel so redundant ...... well-meaning folk tell me it's time for ME - but I have forgotten what 'me' was? Or what other purpose I ever had in life to warrant crawling out from under the duvet .......
Anyone else feeling the same - or how did you get out of the doldrums, aside from the bereavement itself, that losing the 'caring role' brings?
Thanks, a rather bewildered Karen, x
Other than going to work (P/T) and bits of housework (even the paperwork is dwindling now I am no longer EPA and Probate is finally rattling through) I have no reason to do anything .... I have gone from running on adrenaline at a million miles an hour to this ..... ?
Yes, there are a million things I COULD be doing, but I don't have to anymore .......... with mum and dad now gone, hubby, thank God, in remission and my son suddenly turned into a pretty independent young man overnight it seems, I feel so redundant ...... well-meaning folk tell me it's time for ME - but I have forgotten what 'me' was? Or what other purpose I ever had in life to warrant crawling out from under the duvet .......
Anyone else feeling the same - or how did you get out of the doldrums, aside from the bereavement itself, that losing the 'caring role' brings?
Thanks, a rather bewildered Karen, x