It takes a lot of getting used to.
It`s the emptiness, especially when we are in no state to seek alternative company. I tried to join retirement groups but found I had nothing in common with what seemed to be their trivia.
It has taken me years to find some sort of alternative to married life, first when I had visits to keep me going and now after bereavement.
It made me realise how I accepted the separation of older friends and family from their partners without a second thought and now I`m in their shoes it`s a completely overwhelming time of life.
I feel for those of you living through this. There`s no escape. It can only be endured as part of the grieving process.
One day @
Jean1234 you may wake feeling a little bit better. Till then, share your feelings with those of us who know.