I shouted and screamed today ,I banged on my cupboard door . Is this normal or am I out of order . Let me explain why ,I have been waiting for today in a long while , since it has been arranged .he wanted to go to the toilet , okay I said . Let’s go now before I go out . He knew I was going out , he even said you have been looking forward to this . To cut a long story short I ended up using the wheelchair to get him back in the bedroom.. my sister picked me up and I had a bloody good day . Sorry for the swearing. I’m sat here awake while he sleeps with no covers on and has his legs on top of me . I apologised for shouting and screaming .