my first post. I feel a fraud in the company of so many heroes. I struggle to provide support with a willing heart. My mother has lived with us for 15 years. I take her to all her appointments. I cook, clean, shop etc. She has everything she needs physically but I find it hard to love her My relationship with her has been mixed. She was a strong personality & growing up I had some issues with her. She has always favoured my sister but chose to live with us. Her cognitive abilities have declined over the past few years & her recent diagnosis of mixed Alzheimer’s has only confirmed what we knew. She has had a number of falls over the years mainly caused by her not using her frame. The issue is that I find her constant relating of stories all focused on grudges & grievances so wearing. She constantly wants medical help despite, at 90, being relatively well apart from back pain. It’s the moaning & negativity I find so hard. I just feel grateful that she sleeps so much as it buys me respite. Everyone here has so much love for their PWD & are dealing with such difficult issues. It makes me feel so deficient in proper feeling. I have recently retired as I couldn’t hold down a very stressful job & deal with the daily calls asking where I was & what time was it. I just feel so guilty that I can’t give her what she needs with love rather than a - to be totally honest - sense of duty.
How do people deal with the reversal of roles between mother & child especially when the mother has been so judgemental in the past. Sorry for a rather rambling post but I feel so deficient compared with the amazing efforts of others here.
How do people deal with the reversal of roles between mother & child especially when the mother has been so judgemental in the past. Sorry for a rather rambling post but I feel so deficient compared with the amazing efforts of others here.