Hi, it’s been a long time since I’ve posted on here, five years ago probably since my mum first went into a care home. My mum sadly passed away last Sunday. We had a phone call to say she was quite poorly and that they had called the doctors. To which she added ‘you might want to be there when the doctors arrive’. She said the doctors were going there early evening. So I said to ring me when they arrive as my husband had to go to pick my daughter up. Within the hour, we had another phoecall to say she’d passed away. It all happened so quick. When we arrived, my mum was in the bed she’s been in fir the past three years. She looked peaceful, however her eyes were wide open staring into the room. I wasn’t alarmed by this as she didn’t look scary or anything. But I suppose I was shocked that they hadn’t shut her eyes. When I asked why her eyes were open the care home manager replied ‘some do some dont’. When I asked if she was alone when she died she replied. ‘Unfortunately yes’. I feel so guilty, that I misinterpreted the phonecall as being bad news and I was expecting the doctors to say she only has a week or so left. She died before the doctors arrived. I hate the thought of my mum dying alone staring into the room. There was nothing left of her in the end and she was so contracted, curled up in a little ball. Skin and bone, bedridden, morphine, ensure and whatever food they managed to feed her. I am so upset because I’m desperately trying to remember her before this hideous desease took her away from me 8 years ago. She died aged 88. I am hurt that I haven’t been able to converse with her in the past 4 years. Anne x