Sundowning/Paranoia?
We have had a few very calm and peaceful days, and I was beginning to feel secure in the peace, thinking acceptance had come, the worst was over.
As long as he was not put under pressure, not allowed to get too tired, able to call the shots, he was contented.
We were sleeping well, in fact sleeping so well we were both only just up, but not yet dressed, when CPN Terry came on Friday at 10.45am.
And Dhiren was ashamed.
`He will think I am a parasite, lying in bed late, living off the state, not working.`
He continued in this vein for the best part of the day, worrying about people knowing he does not work, worrying they will think badly of him.
Yesterday Sundowning began at 2.30pm. and lasted the rest of the day.
It started with going home to his grandmother`s farm, developed into resentment over my control of his money and took in paranoia along the way;
I have not been to see him all day.
I do not want him here.
I have hidden the food, he has not had a bite to eat all day.
He has a terrible mental illness.
He was wandering round the house, opening cupboards and drawers, opening and closing the front door.
At 6.50pm he got his hat,
D `I have to go now, they close the doors at 7 o`clock.`
S `Where do they close the doors?`
D `At the place where I live.`
Then he sat with me, then went into another room, saying he could feel I didn`t want him here.
He went to bed at 8pm then got up again. He didn`t know where to put himself and I couldn`t reach him.I could do nothing to reassure him.
I did manage, by midnight, to persuade him to come to bed, but after lying by my side for several minutes he got up saying he could feel I did not want him there.
He spent the night in the living room.
I got up this morning to find the living room full of clothes ready for packing.
He asked `What is happening to me?` so he still feels strange.
I told him he had a bad night and have persuaded him to go back to bed for a good sleep.