I need to write this down... my emotions are overwhelming me right now and although my OH is supportive I feel that no-one really understands what I'm going through.
Dad (90) moved care homes yesterday, which I've posted about on a different thread. It's been a difficult few months. I picked what I felt was the best dementia home for him, visiting it several times beforehand. My problem possibly stems from how different dementia homes in general are from the residential home he's lived in for past 3.5 years. I know it's very early days, but I feel bereft. And guilty. And angry at the whole horrible situation.
My concerns, having spent a few hours with dad on his arrival at the new home:
- one of the orderlies (referred to as such by the carer in charge) tried to offer dad a jelly baby. Dad's a choking risk and on a soft food diet. Of course I intervened.
- there seemed to be fewer staff than I'd been led to believe. Another visitor told me his mum has been there two years and they are always short of staff (he mentioned this without prompting).
- dad has very limited mobility, but can just about shuffle around with a frame, which he relies on. He is a falls risk. Unlike his previous home, the policy of the new one is to remove frames once the person is seated. Is this usual? I only saw two frames (tucked away) and no obvious hoists, but at least a dozen residents sat in the main lounge.
- dad cannot speak. He became agitated (no frame in front of him, possibly needed the toilet or just reassurance) and wanted to get up. I watched, because the carer sat next to him ignored him completely and stared into space. Didn't say a word to dad, or any of the other residents needing help. I couldn't bare it any longer, and it turned out dad just wanted to move seats (he was happy after that).
- only one carer interacted with dad or showed any care towards him. But he was also quite physical in his treatment of dad, something I'm not used to. Maybe it's needed? For instance, dad is capable of sitting on a chair but needs a lot of guidance and support. Instead, the carer positioned dad, plus frame, in about the place he wanted him and brought the arm chair up behind him for dad to sit down. Then dragged the armchair to where it should be. He did this twice, dad's feet dragging on the floor.
- dad was asked once if he'd like to sit at the table for lunch, and he shook his head. I think dad misunderstood. But it meant a low-ish side table was dragged in front of him and he ate his lunch off that.
I spoke to the deputy manager before I left and as calmly as I could tried to express some of the above. She was very reassuring. But my mind has been turning it over. Maybe I just need time to readjust? The home needs time to get to know dad? I didn't sleep well last night
Dad (90) moved care homes yesterday, which I've posted about on a different thread. It's been a difficult few months. I picked what I felt was the best dementia home for him, visiting it several times beforehand. My problem possibly stems from how different dementia homes in general are from the residential home he's lived in for past 3.5 years. I know it's very early days, but I feel bereft. And guilty. And angry at the whole horrible situation.
My concerns, having spent a few hours with dad on his arrival at the new home:
- one of the orderlies (referred to as such by the carer in charge) tried to offer dad a jelly baby. Dad's a choking risk and on a soft food diet. Of course I intervened.
- there seemed to be fewer staff than I'd been led to believe. Another visitor told me his mum has been there two years and they are always short of staff (he mentioned this without prompting).
- dad has very limited mobility, but can just about shuffle around with a frame, which he relies on. He is a falls risk. Unlike his previous home, the policy of the new one is to remove frames once the person is seated. Is this usual? I only saw two frames (tucked away) and no obvious hoists, but at least a dozen residents sat in the main lounge.
- dad cannot speak. He became agitated (no frame in front of him, possibly needed the toilet or just reassurance) and wanted to get up. I watched, because the carer sat next to him ignored him completely and stared into space. Didn't say a word to dad, or any of the other residents needing help. I couldn't bare it any longer, and it turned out dad just wanted to move seats (he was happy after that).
- only one carer interacted with dad or showed any care towards him. But he was also quite physical in his treatment of dad, something I'm not used to. Maybe it's needed? For instance, dad is capable of sitting on a chair but needs a lot of guidance and support. Instead, the carer positioned dad, plus frame, in about the place he wanted him and brought the arm chair up behind him for dad to sit down. Then dragged the armchair to where it should be. He did this twice, dad's feet dragging on the floor.
- dad was asked once if he'd like to sit at the table for lunch, and he shook his head. I think dad misunderstood. But it meant a low-ish side table was dragged in front of him and he ate his lunch off that.
I spoke to the deputy manager before I left and as calmly as I could tried to express some of the above. She was very reassuring. But my mind has been turning it over. Maybe I just need time to readjust? The home needs time to get to know dad? I didn't sleep well last night