I have, for three years, gone to a memory clinic but due to moving abroad - as well as my consultant retiring everything seems to have stopped. I have a very bad memory. Very, very bad. I get so frustrated when I cannot remember things that have been said to me. This happens many times each day. I often come to a stop and cannot recall the conversation I have just stopped in the middle of. This also happens often and I find it very embarrassing when strangers just stare at me when this happens. In the chemist I am asked my address and I don't recall it. I was speaking to someone who was walking her dog, and didn't realise it was a neighbour. My memory is getting far worse. I often forget to take tablets.
When out driving I cannot remember which way to go. My wife has to be with me. I have driven past my road and forgotten where to go. I often, if alone, get lost.
On a personal note everything I have to do becomes jumbled. I cannot work things out and often panic because I can see that people are noticing and trying to get back on track makes things worse. I constantly repeat myself and my wife seems to get annoyed with me as people are too nice to say they have heard it. My wife often says "I have told you this lots of times! Why do you not listen". I do listen, it's just that within a couple of minutes it has gone.
I constantly worry about looking foolish or to make people snigger at the stupid things I do. I feel that sometimes I retreat inside myself which seems safer than coming out.
My ex-consultant told me I was very depressed. I have been depressed before many years ago when my young son died. I came out of this a long time ago. I do not feel at all that I am depressed. I have been told I have something but not sure what it was. Some impairment.
I feel awkward when I go to be evaluated because I know how much worse I am feeling. I know that my who mental outlook is getting worse. I try to explain how I feel but can't put it into the right words, which gets me mixed up, which makes them tell me I have depression. A bit like someone telling you that you look worse, and in the end you feel worse!
I want somebody to listen to me. I can write how I feel as you can see, but to say it I end up so confused and feel like walking out. I feel that people do not take me seriously.
When out driving I cannot remember which way to go. My wife has to be with me. I have driven past my road and forgotten where to go. I often, if alone, get lost.
On a personal note everything I have to do becomes jumbled. I cannot work things out and often panic because I can see that people are noticing and trying to get back on track makes things worse. I constantly repeat myself and my wife seems to get annoyed with me as people are too nice to say they have heard it. My wife often says "I have told you this lots of times! Why do you not listen". I do listen, it's just that within a couple of minutes it has gone.
I constantly worry about looking foolish or to make people snigger at the stupid things I do. I feel that sometimes I retreat inside myself which seems safer than coming out.
My ex-consultant told me I was very depressed. I have been depressed before many years ago when my young son died. I came out of this a long time ago. I do not feel at all that I am depressed. I have been told I have something but not sure what it was. Some impairment.
I feel awkward when I go to be evaluated because I know how much worse I am feeling. I know that my who mental outlook is getting worse. I try to explain how I feel but can't put it into the right words, which gets me mixed up, which makes them tell me I have depression. A bit like someone telling you that you look worse, and in the end you feel worse!
I want somebody to listen to me. I can write how I feel as you can see, but to say it I end up so confused and feel like walking out. I feel that people do not take me seriously.
