I haven't posted here for a long time, just been getting on with my DH's dementia journey (5 years). Two years ago I listened to everyone saying I had to care for myself as well as him and managed to have both a week's solo break and a week away with a friend last year. It was wonderful.
This year I'm planning the same....I was so excited to be going away on Saturday until my DH started mentioning my suitcase in the hall and asking if I was going away.
Today he asked again and when I said yes, he started getting upset. I'd written him a note (like I always do if I'm away for even an hour) to say how long I'd be away and who was going to look after him (his two daughters and two carers) and he's been reading it repeatedly and crying because I'm going without him.
In the note I said I needed a break from work to rest my brain (I work from home) and we'll be having a holiday together in June.
Now I can't stop thinking I shouldn't be going away without him. He's been my soulmate for 25 of our 28 years together until the dementia really kicked in, and I hate the fact that I just need to get away from him for a bit and think only of my own needs for a change.
This year I'm planning the same....I was so excited to be going away on Saturday until my DH started mentioning my suitcase in the hall and asking if I was going away.
Today he asked again and when I said yes, he started getting upset. I'd written him a note (like I always do if I'm away for even an hour) to say how long I'd be away and who was going to look after him (his two daughters and two carers) and he's been reading it repeatedly and crying because I'm going without him.
In the note I said I needed a break from work to rest my brain (I work from home) and we'll be having a holiday together in June.
Now I can't stop thinking I shouldn't be going away without him. He's been my soulmate for 25 of our 28 years together until the dementia really kicked in, and I hate the fact that I just need to get away from him for a bit and think only of my own needs for a change.