This my first time on here. I decided after today that I need to be able to just get things off my chest. I am waiting for a phone call from my dad to tell me how bad my Grandma was today. I know a little of what she has been doing but I'm dreading the call.
My Grandma was diagnosed with Alzheimers 2 years ago but I believe she is heading towards the later stages of the disease, she may already be in it.
The reason I feel so guilty is because I cant bring myself to go and see her. The lady I see is a stranger not the loving cuddly warm funny lady of my youth. My dad is bearing the brunt of it and she accuses him of hitting her and having affairs with the carers. She is also hallucinating and apparently having an entire conversation on her own but with 2 different voices.
I also work for Adult Social Services and take referrals for people needing help and alot of this is dealing with caring for people with dementia. So I hear the stories of how bad it can be.
I think what I am dreading is that if I go and visit her she wont recognise me, it would break my heart.
My Grandma was diagnosed with Alzheimers 2 years ago but I believe she is heading towards the later stages of the disease, she may already be in it.
The reason I feel so guilty is because I cant bring myself to go and see her. The lady I see is a stranger not the loving cuddly warm funny lady of my youth. My dad is bearing the brunt of it and she accuses him of hitting her and having affairs with the carers. She is also hallucinating and apparently having an entire conversation on her own but with 2 different voices.
I also work for Adult Social Services and take referrals for people needing help and alot of this is dealing with caring for people with dementia. So I hear the stories of how bad it can be.
I think what I am dreading is that if I go and visit her she wont recognise me, it would break my heart.