This might be long but please bear with me. I live(d) with mum and dad all my life. Mum was diagnosed on 31 July 2014 (a date I shall never forget). She was okay and pretty independent up until a year ago although did not go out alone for about 3 years. She was becoming more confused, using cat food instead of washing up liquid, drinking floor cleaner, etc. I cut my days of working as dad also has his own issues. Anyway, after a sharp deterioration since December, she wandered out one night in Feb. I never heard a thing and only knew when she was returned by the police. She went into hospital and was there for about 2 weeks. She then moved to intermediate care and we started looking at care homes. We found a lovely one and she moved there a week ago. I was coping really well until her permanent home. I can't function. We are very close but I had my own life away from them until her diagnoses which has consumed all our lives. Everywhere I go reminds me of mum. She is my best pal, a lovely lady. I dread the day she will forget me. It is like a death.
I've just returned to work after being off 10 weeks. I'm due in tomorrow and am dreading it. I'm really surprised by my reaction.
Mum seems to be settling. She has her photos and music around her. She's clean and the staff take care with the small things like matching her clothes, etc. She already has a few wee pals.
But how do I go on. The house is so lonely without her. Every time I'm asked about it I cry. I'm not sure I can go on.
I'm sorry to go on but really have no where else to vent. Will this get better? Thanks for taking the time to read. X
I've just returned to work after being off 10 weeks. I'm due in tomorrow and am dreading it. I'm really surprised by my reaction.
Mum seems to be settling. She has her photos and music around her. She's clean and the staff take care with the small things like matching her clothes, etc. She already has a few wee pals.
But how do I go on. The house is so lonely without her. Every time I'm asked about it I cry. I'm not sure I can go on.
I'm sorry to go on but really have no where else to vent. Will this get better? Thanks for taking the time to read. X