Hello, Country Lady,
I assume you are in the Uk....and not sleeping? Dementia has such an affect in everything doesn’t it? Your post caught me eye, as it was my husband’s behaviour when we were abroad that first alerted me to the fact that he might be ill and not just forgetful and sleepwalking. I presume your husband has a formal diagnosis? If so, then it could well be he is exhibiting sundowning. I think the best comfort I have to offer you right now, is I have found behaviours exhibited have not been constant or permanent. I have had afternoons when my husband has not recognised me at all, or known where he is (when we were at home), but this is by no means seen every day. It is still relatively rare, though becoming more frequent.
I’m wondering if you are panicking, wondering if you will ever be able to travel again? Our first incident was in 2015. Since then we have still travelled extensively, but I have made some adjustments. We tend to stick to Europe, try to avoid extremely early flights, so he does not lose too much sleep, and more recently, we have discovered cruising. It is expensive, but it is also almost stress free. We use a company that specialises in travel for the over 50’s. Another solution for us, is to travel with my sister. She very kindly keeps my husband company so that I can get out for the occasional long walk, that he cannot manage any more. (That is due to his age, more than dementia).
Your last point, that he needs to be watched 24/7 also sounds familiar. At the moment, most days I can leave my husband for a few hours in the morning. His confusion tends to arise more after he has had a nap, or deep sleep. He wakes several times in the night, and needs to be guided to the toilet, as he sometimes wanders and can ‘perform’ in the wrong place entirely.
This lack of sleep,for me, led me very close to ‘carer’s breakdown’ just before Christmas...and I’m again in a pretty precarious position. I was advised, well over a year ago, to start getting help before you need it. That way, when it is necessary, it is also accepted as it is familiar.
I cannot stress this highly enough. My husband started to attend a form of day care, fist once a week....now twice. I call it a club...so he does too. I am in the process of arranging a sleep in carer, so that I can have regular nights off. I will be increasing the day care so that I can get regular exercise. I cannot pretend that my husband is thrilled with all this. He wants to be with me all the time, day and night. If I complied with that, I would have a breakdown and he would have to have 24/7 care from a stranger.
To preserve what life we still have together, I need time out.
Please,take the advice I was given and find some help, be it a carer, or day care (clubs!).
You will find this forum an invaluable source of information and support. The members are amazing.