Is there anyone left here who remembers me?
Husband Rob died on October 10th, approximately 24 hours after I had my operation for breast cancer. Double whammy. They said he collapsed about the time of my operation.
So now I'm a Dementia Widow, no longer a Dementia Wife, and six months later it feels a bit fraudulent to be here, and I'm not sure what, if anything, I have to offer..But I'm popping in just to say hello again.
He never quite stopped battling with his loss....but the carers and his GP were wonderful at the end, and made sure he was at peace. And I could only be grateful that his struggles were over, and the burden lifted.
Suddenly the music stops...visiting him in his care home, that became like a second home to both of us, no longer dominates my days.. They feel empty, and moving forward without him after all those 56 years together feels strange.I must pick up activities again that we had to abandon...
But now I can look back with a differen perspective, because Dementia was only a part of his busy and varied life, and he lives on in family folklore. We repeat his jokes, constantly quote the things he would have said, and raise our glasses for him whenever we're together. It feels good that he is no longer having to struggle to keep up, and trying to hide his fears.
A dear friend has travelled exactly the same path, with both our husbands showing puzzling signs at the same time. She is still visiting hers each day in a Care Home...