She called earlier today while she was visiting my mother to complain bitterly that the staff "always" have my mother facing a mobile aquarium. She thinks Mum should be facing the window & got into a bit of a barney with the charge nurse. So that's why she phoned me - to complain & get me to tell the staff to have Mum facing a window. I tried to point out that I find Mum in several different places but she got upset with that. Her truth is the only truth.
She then put Mum on the phone, which hasn't happened in nearly two years. Hearing my mother's voice, even though she could barely say my name (and was prompted by my aunt) and also saying her usual "da da da da da" brought me to my emotional knees. Thank God my aunt wasn't aware of this - why would she be? She's completely oblivious to other people and their emotions. She ended up putting Mum on the phone 3 times & telling me Mum knew it was me, as Mum had tears in her eyes. Well, I had tears everywhere. Thank God I've learned to cry silently in the office.
This hasn't happened to me in a long time. I think I've emotionally compartmentalized things. I usually have my emotions sorted out when I visit Mum as I'm prepared. I have been caught off guard once or twice - most recently when Rudi got my mother to whistle. But generally I talk to Mum, make a few jokes, act like she understands me, because who knows what she understands. I simply wasn't ready today to hear her on the phone. I've been feeling a little weepy off & on all day now. I don't need this at work.
I can't say anything to my aunt because I do realize that she means well. You know about the way to hell being paved? Hers must be paved with platinum & diamonds.
I just had to get this off my chest. I can't tell either my sister or my husband as they get upset & angry at my aunt on my behalf.
I will be better later on.
She then put Mum on the phone, which hasn't happened in nearly two years. Hearing my mother's voice, even though she could barely say my name (and was prompted by my aunt) and also saying her usual "da da da da da" brought me to my emotional knees. Thank God my aunt wasn't aware of this - why would she be? She's completely oblivious to other people and their emotions. She ended up putting Mum on the phone 3 times & telling me Mum knew it was me, as Mum had tears in her eyes. Well, I had tears everywhere. Thank God I've learned to cry silently in the office.
This hasn't happened to me in a long time. I think I've emotionally compartmentalized things. I usually have my emotions sorted out when I visit Mum as I'm prepared. I have been caught off guard once or twice - most recently when Rudi got my mother to whistle. But generally I talk to Mum, make a few jokes, act like she understands me, because who knows what she understands. I simply wasn't ready today to hear her on the phone. I've been feeling a little weepy off & on all day now. I don't need this at work.
I can't say anything to my aunt because I do realize that she means well. You know about the way to hell being paved? Hers must be paved with platinum & diamonds.
I just had to get this off my chest. I can't tell either my sister or my husband as they get upset & angry at my aunt on my behalf.
I will be better later on.
