It has been 16 months since my dad was first diagnosed with mixed dementia. He is at the early stages and manages ok living independently.
What I struggle with is the menial stuff that happens a lot. Not knowing what day it is or time of the day. Misplaced keys, debit cards and bus passes. Multiple appointments to doctors, dentist, opticians, clinics and hospitals. He's ungrateful too - complains about the hassle if any appointment and thinks they're pointless because the doctors don't give him a magic pill to fix him. After 7 appointments to get some hearing aids he won't wear them. 5 appointments for dentures he doesn't wear. Can't even count the number of opticians appointments!
I'm really struggling physically and mentally to be his PA having to call him to remind him of something coming up or to remind him that something isn't happening - sometimes when my brother and I don't speak to him he'll decide that an appointment or event is going to happen and then he'll call in the evening asking where we are and shout at us because we should have reminded him that nothing is happening. I'm tired of sacrificing my days off or having to work extra hours to make up for time lost taking him to appointments. His numerous phone calls about problems, complaints or just to have a go at me are draining.
I'm 33 and I want to focus on my career and having a baby. My brother is in a similar position to me - newly wed, working a post doctorate job and working out his next career steps. We share the load but it doesn't feel physically possible for us to do more. We both also struggle because he was never a loving dad so very little to bond us to him. The age gap (52 years when he had me), culture gap and limited love leaves us uninspired to do more than what we need.
Every day I want him to die or I want to die, either option sounds good. If I feel like this at the early stages how am I going to cope when he's worse? How am I going to cope if I get the job I'm applying for tihat requires 4 hours of commuting each day? How do I cope if I have a baby?
What I struggle with is the menial stuff that happens a lot. Not knowing what day it is or time of the day. Misplaced keys, debit cards and bus passes. Multiple appointments to doctors, dentist, opticians, clinics and hospitals. He's ungrateful too - complains about the hassle if any appointment and thinks they're pointless because the doctors don't give him a magic pill to fix him. After 7 appointments to get some hearing aids he won't wear them. 5 appointments for dentures he doesn't wear. Can't even count the number of opticians appointments!
I'm really struggling physically and mentally to be his PA having to call him to remind him of something coming up or to remind him that something isn't happening - sometimes when my brother and I don't speak to him he'll decide that an appointment or event is going to happen and then he'll call in the evening asking where we are and shout at us because we should have reminded him that nothing is happening. I'm tired of sacrificing my days off or having to work extra hours to make up for time lost taking him to appointments. His numerous phone calls about problems, complaints or just to have a go at me are draining.
I'm 33 and I want to focus on my career and having a baby. My brother is in a similar position to me - newly wed, working a post doctorate job and working out his next career steps. We share the load but it doesn't feel physically possible for us to do more. We both also struggle because he was never a loving dad so very little to bond us to him. The age gap (52 years when he had me), culture gap and limited love leaves us uninspired to do more than what we need.
Every day I want him to die or I want to die, either option sounds good. If I feel like this at the early stages how am I going to cope when he's worse? How am I going to cope if I get the job I'm applying for tihat requires 4 hours of commuting each day? How do I cope if I have a baby?