Miss my mum's cuddles.

[Donbon79]

She's been physically gone 14 months although 6 years before that the dementia stole her as a person. It's been some time since I've had one of those cuddles that makes everything seem right but sometimes I really just need one. Just from her. Before the dementia.

 

[margherita]

Your post deserves a reply, but I can't find the right words.
I wish I could say something to console you
Can I send you a big hug?

 

[Amethyst59]

It's rotten, isn't it? No one hugs like a mum. Weren't we lucky to have mums who hugged us? Virtual hug from me too....which is a poor substitute, but hopefully you don't feel so alone.

 

[Moggymad]

Hi Donbon, a very poignant post brought a tear to my eye & made me think when the time comes for my mum I will keep an old favourite cardigan of hers for just such moments. Do you have anything like that you can wrap around youself? Sending hugs too

 

[rosy18]

Again a poor substitute I know but just wanted to send you a (((hug))) as well
I miss the sharing of emotions with my Mum it's just the little things that we cherished and now crave.
Whenever I sneezed Mum always used to say Bless you. The first time I sneezed and was met by silence ........

 

[MollyD]

Whenever I sneezed Mum always used to say Bless you. The first time I sneezed and was met by silence ........

Oh, rosy, this is so poignant. I understand. X

Donbon, just to say I hear you. Hugs x

 

[100 miles]

My mum has been gone 18 months now.

I miss giving her hugs and wish I had given her many more. Because sometimes a hug was what was needed to make her feel safe.

To anyone reading this....give more hugs.

 

[Donbon79]

Thanks to all for your kind comments. I write on here because I know you understand. Despite my mum being gone for a while I still come back to this forum as it's the only place I seem to get comfort.

Life is very trying and occasionally, despite me being strong and in control most of the time, I have a wobble. When I wrote what I wrote I'd just had some bad news and it tipped me over the edge, so to speak. The only thing that would've made me feel better at that point was my mum. Instead I lay on my bed and sobbed and wished she was here and thought about her smell and the comforting noises she would make when cuddling me. I miss that. I wonder if I'll ever stop missing that. You'd think at 38 and with a 7 year old daughter of my own that I'd have outgrown that need but I guess not.

I cuddled my daughter the day after when she fell and hurt herself and tears welled in my eyes as I thought about how she'd be feeling as I cuddled her. It made me happy and sad at the same time. I had to quickly pull myself together so she didn't see. She gets very upset when I cry.

Even though writing this makes me sob, it's cathartic. I think I would just break if I wasn't able to write down how I was feeling.

Thank you for taking the time to read and respond. It really means a lot.

 

[Amethyst59]

I'm so glad you get some comfort from those of us here who know how it feels. 38 ... just a baby. I'm 58 and still would love a cuddle from my mum!

 

[Pear trees]

I am 59 and had often wanted a cuddle, hug or even just support from my mum, but she never showed any affection to her children and was never interested in their lives.
I cuddle and hug my daughter and grandchildren wherever possible, and love knowing they enjoy being with me and can talk to me about anything.