Morning everyone. Thought I'd pop on here before we start our daily routine
Good to hear from you again HD, but sorry to hear you're still struggling so much. Hopefully in time things will get a little easier for you, and hopefully the kitten will help somewhat.
Lavender - I thought of you when I read the latest copy of the Alz Society mag - they were advertising lots of very pointy looking play things! I too hope mum slips away quietly before the later stages of this disease hit her. I don't want to see it and I don't want to see her going through it. I really hope we are both spared it. The reality is very stark - I can't really start living my life properly again until mum dies. It's a very unpleasant fact, but a fact it is. A good friend of mine - her mother had Parkinsons and then at the end some dementia - her mum lasted a few years in a home, bed bound. My friend used to say it would be better if she slipped away, I didn't understand that sentiment then, and used to be quite shocked, but now I do sadly.
Mum is still calm and sleeping at night. I would say that she has been stable now for nearly a year. Maybe this is how this dreaded VaD is affecting her. If it was a TIA, maybe it did the damage and that was that, but I guess the chances are that she'll have another at some stage, then I don't know where we'll be. She still hates the carer being here, but I have kind of got used to that - the carer doesn't seem too upset about it! We've got two weeks coming up without the carer. She's on holiday, and I don't want anyone else coming and upsetting the applecart. Fortunately she's off for a week, then working a week, then off for another week, so not two weeks solid.
I think I'm OK, but started doing something recently which I guess you would class as 'self harm'. I'm shocked even writing that! Nothing too serious - I looked it up, and it seems a common thing. I won't be doing it again as it left me with very bad headaches last time and I was very worried. I guess the frustration just had to be vented somewhere, but I'm going to have to find something else to hit.
Hope everyone is doing OK. Not looking forward to the winter - darker days and longer days spent at home, cooped up with this dreadful situation.