My dear wife.
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So sorry Gringo your love for your dear wife has always shone through your posts, please keep posting I have found TP a great comfort after my husband's death. Xx
Dear gringo,
I've come to this very late in the day, but wanted to belatedly pass on my condolences.
I am truly sorry for your loss.
MM xx
I've come to this very late in the day, but wanted to belatedly pass on my condolences.
I am truly sorry for your loss.
MM xx
Endless nights and lonely empty days.
I’m like a ship with no anchor, drifting with the tide.
On a leaden sea, shrouded in a colourless haze.
Since that sad dawn on which my dear wife died.
How truly hard this is! The worst part has been the gradual realisation of the finality of this parting. I know that may sound odd, but I had hoped against hope that I would wakeup to find it all a very bad dream.
Having trouble sleeping, I spend the time trawling the internet. Inevitably, grasping at any straws, I sample the bereavement forums and am surprised at the number of web sites dealing with conjecture and discussion about life after death, from both the religious and scientific standpoints. I have always considered myself an agnostic on scientific grounds. But now I find my scientific scruples are only skin deep and I desperately want to be proved wrong. I want to believe that death is not the end. I spend my time hoping, looking and listening for a sign.
So I sit in the cemetery waiting….
As the proverb says ’There’s no fool like an old fool.’
I’m like a ship with no anchor, drifting with the tide.
On a leaden sea, shrouded in a colourless haze.
Since that sad dawn on which my dear wife died.
How truly hard this is! The worst part has been the gradual realisation of the finality of this parting. I know that may sound odd, but I had hoped against hope that I would wakeup to find it all a very bad dream.
Having trouble sleeping, I spend the time trawling the internet. Inevitably, grasping at any straws, I sample the bereavement forums and am surprised at the number of web sites dealing with conjecture and discussion about life after death, from both the religious and scientific standpoints. I have always considered myself an agnostic on scientific grounds. But now I find my scientific scruples are only skin deep and I desperately want to be proved wrong. I want to believe that death is not the end. I spend my time hoping, looking and listening for a sign.
So I sit in the cemetery waiting….
As the proverb says ’There’s no fool like an old fool.’
You are not an old fool!!!
When my father died in 1995, I was going through a difficult period, made worse by his loss.
I started writing to him..Not letters. A dialogue with him, where I wrote what I thought he would have told me, had he been alive.
It helped me a lot not to feel alone.
It gave me the strength to go on, he was with me, by me. I can't explain how, but he was.
And he still is.
When my father died in 1995, I was going through a difficult period, made worse by his loss.
I started writing to him..Not letters. A dialogue with him, where I wrote what I thought he would have told me, had he been alive.
It helped me a lot not to feel alone.
It gave me the strength to go on, he was with me, by me. I can't explain how, but he was.
And he still is.
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Hi Gringo, I too have been down this path, and understand how hard this realisation is. Some days, I dream that Roger is back with me, but then reality hits. I have bought books about grieving, but nothing really changes it. I now find that my beliefs are all over the place; I am now living in hope that my love and I will meet again. If I lose that belief, I will lose all hope in my life. I feel his presence all around me, and am sure he's with me in everything I do.
Can we be a pair of old fools together?
Here's another who seeks answers but can find none.
Little comfort either.
Gringo, it is all so new for you but I hope that you will eventually fiind some meaning to your days. I drift too and am constantly aware that time is precious but lack the energy or the will to do anything about it. When the focus of our lives disappears, that which gave us purpose for so long is taken away too and it is not easy to find other things with which to fill our lives.
I hope that in time you will find some meaning to it all Gringo.
Take care of yourself. x
Little comfort either.
Gringo, it is all so new for you but I hope that you will eventually fiind some meaning to your days. I drift too and am constantly aware that time is precious but lack the energy or the will to do anything about it. When the focus of our lives disappears, that which gave us purpose for so long is taken away too and it is not easy to find other things with which to fill our lives.
I hope that in time you will find some meaning to it all Gringo.
Take care of yourself. x
Dear Mike,
You are suffering from deep, deep grief, loss and immeasurable heartbreak. Why does wanting to believe that death is not the end make you a fool? I hold on tight to my Spiritual beliefs-it's how I cope on a certain level. Many people can't embrace the idea
that they will somehow meet their loved one when they themselves pass; but why should a scientific viewpoint be more likely than a Spiritualist one?
Many people on this Forum have posted about 'signs' where they felt their LO was 'watching' over them; wishful thinking or the result of a deep seated belief? I remember very clearly on a dark Winter's day, not long after Pete had passed, looking out of the window at the dark sky and crying with the sheer pain of loss. The room started to slowly get lighter and I felt Pete give me one of his bear hugs. Yes, I felt his presence and his love, and it comforted me. I hope you find the same comfort soon Mike.
Love,
Lyn T XX
I'm just echoing what everyone else has said here.
I'm coming up to the first anniversary of a Bill's death. I miss him desperately. I speak to him all the time. I see the first star in an evening and speak to it as if it were him. The same with the moon. I even speak to his chair!
My response to his death has been to fill my days and weeks with activities and being with others. I often think that because of this people think I have 'got over' Bill's death. That is not the case and never will be. I know it sounds corny but I feel that Bill is in my heart and with me in everything I do.
I'm sorry Gringo. I hope you find some solace.
I'm coming up to the first anniversary of a Bill's death. I miss him desperately. I speak to him all the time. I see the first star in an evening and speak to it as if it were him. The same with the moon. I even speak to his chair!
My response to his death has been to fill my days and weeks with activities and being with others. I often think that because of this people think I have 'got over' Bill's death. That is not the case and never will be. I know it sounds corny but I feel that Bill is in my heart and with me in everything I do.
I'm sorry Gringo. I hope you find some solace.
