Mum mum is in a secure unit under a section 3 at the moment and all being well she will be able to go into a care home soon.
My problem is with visiting, which sounds awful, but I'm quite literally forcing myself to go in.
At the moment I go in every other day, my cousin goes in once a week and my sister cannot face going in at all. The unit is not great and would in my honest opinion be worse but for the fact that I keep a close she on mum's welfare and am vocal when things are wrong.
I feel like I should want to be there, I should want to spend time with mum after all she's deteriorated to this point pretty fast so who knows how long we've got, but I don't feel these things, what I feel is oh God I have to go in there today. I was staying around 2 hours per visit, I have cut this down to about an hour and a half leaving when she sits down for her evening meal. On the way home I am exhausted. How can sitting there or following mum walking around the coridoors be so tiring and how can I get past my reluctance to be there at all?
My problem is with visiting, which sounds awful, but I'm quite literally forcing myself to go in.
At the moment I go in every other day, my cousin goes in once a week and my sister cannot face going in at all. The unit is not great and would in my honest opinion be worse but for the fact that I keep a close she on mum's welfare and am vocal when things are wrong.
I feel like I should want to be there, I should want to spend time with mum after all she's deteriorated to this point pretty fast so who knows how long we've got, but I don't feel these things, what I feel is oh God I have to go in there today. I was staying around 2 hours per visit, I have cut this down to about an hour and a half leaving when she sits down for her evening meal. On the way home I am exhausted. How can sitting there or following mum walking around the coridoors be so tiring and how can I get past my reluctance to be there at all?