My lovely Granny who has had a long 10 year battle with Vascular Dementia is dying here in our house and has been given diamorphine and palliative care by the out of hours doctor to help her.
Everything feels unreal. I have spent lots of time being so fed up with the dementia and the effect it has had on our family (with granny having moved into my parents house 10 years ago and having needed significant levels of care for 11 years) but now I feel lost and worried about how the grief is about to affect my family. My Mum has been caring for my Gran as though she were a toddler for the past 18 months and is going to miss my Gran immensely- she calls her 'little one' and has spent all the time that she has away from work caring for her.
I feel that I have not spent enough time or been kind enough to my Granny in recent months because I have been resentful of the situation. I think there are a lot of things that I will regret in the coming months/years because I could have been nicer to my granny, particularly in the last few months.
Everything feels unreal. I have spent lots of time being so fed up with the dementia and the effect it has had on our family (with granny having moved into my parents house 10 years ago and having needed significant levels of care for 11 years) but now I feel lost and worried about how the grief is about to affect my family. My Mum has been caring for my Gran as though she were a toddler for the past 18 months and is going to miss my Gran immensely- she calls her 'little one' and has spent all the time that she has away from work caring for her.
I feel that I have not spent enough time or been kind enough to my Granny in recent months because I have been resentful of the situation. I think there are a lot of things that I will regret in the coming months/years because I could have been nicer to my granny, particularly in the last few months.