oh my sparklestars
is there another GP at the surgery who may take your, very real imo, concerns on board
to me what your mum has done is a form of the wandering we read a lot about on TP; that compulsion to go, go somewhere, go immediately, to find somewhere that is 'home', somewhere that is without the dementia (I appreciate your mum hasn't been diagnosed, but that is what you are fearing); the difference is that your mum is still physically able to drive the car so her wandering is not on foot, so could end up anywhere - this reads like an explanation many PWD can't give
sorry, not meaning to make things feel worse - her actions, are calling out for someone to help
if dementia is at play, your mum is one of those high functioning folk who sail through the 'mini' test but whose inabilities may well show up in the longer, more thorough testing, and with more careful questioning
any chance of rifling through her handbag for a key - would you be able to nick it, copy it (quick scoot out to get more milk) and get it back if someone else keeps her busy?
I don't blame the neighbour for wanting to step away - just wondering again; might he write out what he has noticed, what worries him as the person living next to your mum, so that you can pass this on to a GP and consultant Hopefully there will be one, one day) - it might make the GP think again - and your mum need never know
best wishes
Thank you Shedrech, I am sitting here in tears that at least someone else at least believes my concerns are very real. I am falling apart at the seams. It feels like everywhere I turn no one believes me or wants to listen. I never know 'who' my Mother is going to be from one day to the next. One day she acknowledges that perhaps she has a problem and is paranoid, the next day I am just a liar and a thief. I can't plan anything because anything I book with her agreement one day she is refusing to do and denying the next.
I had never thought of it as 'wandering' until you said but yes, absolutely yes - you are so right....that is exactly what she is trying to do....trying to find a place where she can run before it catches up with her....but of course it is with her all the time so she can never really outrun it.
I so agree - when she is not on a manic high then she is desperately calling out for help - but I can't get anyone to listen and I'm falling apart with trying I can't get hold of her key as the only time I can see her is when she comes to my place, I am here alone with my 9 year old, key cutting shops are miles away....I could never get hold of her bag and get out and back. I don't really even want to leave her alone here with my daughter anyway as I just don't know what might happen.
I went to speak to another friend of hers today - the one who lives near the hotel she ran away to spend the night at. We spent a long day talking, she realised already what was happening with my Mother. My Mother has said so many hideously awful things about me to her - all untrue of course - but oh, it hurts me so much....such awful things I know it's the 'illness' but it's still so, so painful even though I knew without being told what she'd be saying. She is totally and utterly obsessed with me and what I've 'apparently' been doing to her....equally obsessed with the love she has for my daughter. I'm scared. I'm really, really scared. I don't know what the heck to do.
I have phoned again this morning to try and speak to another GP. The one I want isn't in till Monday. I couldn't get the appointment that Mother had agreed to go to with me last night - to speak 'honestly' to the GP with her (well at least she did last night) - it was all booked up a month in advance and they don't book any further than that. They told me to phone Monday lunchtime and he might cancel another one to get us in if he feels it's urgent.
I spoke to Mother again today - she is back in 'wary and evasive' mode with me. I again suggested I could help her with banking, but she's having none of it. Oh, I forgot to say....last night it slipped out she'd invited some shady audiologist to the house as she 'thought' she needed hearing aids (she just needs her ear syringing) and he was quoting her over £5,000.00. It was only because she told him she didn't have the money on her that he walked away without it. Apparently she'd also told her friend this and her friend's husband went mad when he heard as he knows of this shady character and said he's a well known charlatan. Mother was also apparently asking her friend if I had a Power of Attorney and how she could "get if off me" if so - as I am clearly such an awful person.
I wish I could run away....I'm supposed to run my own life, work in a highly demanding job and look after my lovely little girl whilst sorting all this out on my own (I'm single). I feel like I am going to shatter into a million pieces.
Sorry for the massive monologue but I really am at breaking point