So sorry to hear of your loss, Carper8. I lost my husband 17 months ago - I can hardly believe it's been that long. In many ways, it does get better, and the rawness of early grief does lessen. But there is always that absence felt. And there is always that feeling of being slightly alone, even in a crowd - even with extended family members. Your loss is still very recent, and you are still probably feeling the exhaustion of the newly bereaved. Just go with it.Take naps. I remember there were days in the months after my husband died, when I would find hours had passed, and I had done nothing - literally! I had just been sitting looking into space! It's all part of healing.
But also, I would say, look for - and do for yourself - little things to cheer you. Signs of Spring, or an occasional bunch of flowers, or even a tiny pot of mini daffodils. This is a time for being very very kind and caring of yourself. xx