I'm so sorry Pete, by the sounds of it you gave everything to your wife, the best possible care you could, which I'm sure in the long term is something you will be really proud of because its a great achievement to give that gift to another human being, although maybe no comfort yet.
All I can say is - be kind to yourself. You've got to be kind, I know it sounds stupid but try to eat regularly and exercise a little, I think you have to look after yourself physically. I lost my Mum a fortnight ago and its still very raw as yet. I'm very sad too, its really hard.
When my Dad died seven years ago, also with dementia, I told myself that now he had gone I could have my real Dad back, in my memory at least, and I could forget all the awful dementia years. It takes awhile but the memory of that bad period faded and I think of him now as a proper real person, someone clever and funny and not defined by dementia, which is a stupid disease.
All I can say is - be kind to yourself. You've got to be kind, I know it sounds stupid but try to eat regularly and exercise a little, I think you have to look after yourself physically. I lost my Mum a fortnight ago and its still very raw as yet. I'm very sad too, its really hard.
When my Dad died seven years ago, also with dementia, I told myself that now he had gone I could have my real Dad back, in my memory at least, and I could forget all the awful dementia years. It takes awhile but the memory of that bad period faded and I think of him now as a proper real person, someone clever and funny and not defined by dementia, which is a stupid disease.