Just going to come out and be honest here:
I'm not sure what brought it on, but I've been in floods of tears this evening. And full of doubt about whether I've done the right thing in getting Bowie. And wondering if maybe I should hand him back to the SPCA.
All the thinking, all the advice, all the reading & research I had done before getting him - nothing could really have prepared me for how very full on, all the time, in your face a puppy is! They really are relentless! Can be fun, yes - but so much work! And yes, people say "Oh, they are hard work." - but until you experience it, you really have
no idea! And he was just being such a little monster today, it all just came to a head with me, I suppose. When we are out walking around in the garden - which up to now, he has been great with, trotting around with me, now and then going off a bit to sniff the trees and bushes, and then running to catch up - but today, he has developed the trick of just running in front of me, jumping and biting at my legs. Not fun! I kept tripping over him, and stepping on his paws. Not to mention, that it's a habit I need to train him out of asap, but have no idea how to. He wasn't doing it in a nasty way - he was just being playful, but it's still not something he should be doing.
He also pee'd in the house three times today - almost right after going outside and peeing outside. He came back in, and within five minutes, had pee'd on the floor - well, once it was on the floor, the little monkey sneaked under the kitchen table to do it, and the other two times, he actually just stood up on his bed in the kitchen and did it on his bed!
So, I suppose I was upset that he's so slow on the house training. He does know. I know he knows. He has never once dirtied in the house. And he will, most often, go to the door to wee outside, and then come looking for his treat. He's never told off when he goes in the house. So I don't know.
And there's the food thing. Am I over-feeding? He was ravenous tonight by 7pm!! So, now he's had all he's due to get until morning. I can see it being a very early start in the morning! The feed he's on is 15euro for a 2kg bag. At the rate he's getting through it, it's going to be 15euro a week before long - at the current rate, a 2 kg bag will last about ten days. So, I'll have to wean him onto something cheaper. Particularly at the rate he's growing - he looks, in spite of what the vet said, like he's going to be big.
Unless I do return him to the SPCA.
I feel such a failure and such a fool. I was there this evening, trying to cope with him being just such a little monster! I finally had to put him in "time out" in his crate. And as I sat and cried, I got to thinking - my house used to feel so very empty & quiet. But it was also kind of peaceful, and I could sit and read a book in peace, or watch a dvd. And it was clean & tidy. Didn't smell of dog.
So, there you have it. Much, much weeping tonight. I
know he's just a puppy, and he'll outgrow much of his behaviour. And right now, the little monster has a full tummy (quite a large tummy it looks too, from this angle!) and is sleeping peacefully.