Good morning
This is a weird post to write. I would like to ask those who have suffered from, or witnessed, carer breakdown, how you know when you've got it? I think I'm close to the edge - frequent tears, getting angry with my husband, not wanting to get up in the morning, not feeling up to doing anything much, getting tired of only talking about my husband's dementia whenever I get to talk to anyone other than him.
To summarise the situation at home right now: my husband, who has been diagnosed with FTD, can be very angry, and is frequently abusive verbally (every day) and occasionally physically. He is fit, and has no ostensible idea that he has anything wrong with him. I am trying to get a regular caregiver in place, but for the past month or so since we have been living permanently in the USA, have relied on friends & family, all of whom have jobs and busy lives, to keep him company once or twice a week. Otherwise, I just go out - to Caregivers' support groups & workshops, mainly, and leave him on his own. He is physically safe, and sometimes quite enjoys time alone, but he hates seeing me leave.
The most difficult symptom for me (and probably him) to cope with is the Capgras stuff, where he thinks I am not his wife, but a look-alike impostor. This has most recently resulted in him taking my car keys and throwing me out of the house on a rainy Friday evening…Friends rescued me, and I spent the night at their house, but that meant leaving him alone all night. He was okay, if shaken in the morning, but that is not an option.
Respite, that's what I want. I have a feeling that would set me up for a while longer, but the difficulty is - how? When? Where? I am taking advice on this, and all the other short-, medium- and long-term care options, but in the meantime - how do I get through today? And tomorrow?
This is a weird post to write. I would like to ask those who have suffered from, or witnessed, carer breakdown, how you know when you've got it? I think I'm close to the edge - frequent tears, getting angry with my husband, not wanting to get up in the morning, not feeling up to doing anything much, getting tired of only talking about my husband's dementia whenever I get to talk to anyone other than him.
To summarise the situation at home right now: my husband, who has been diagnosed with FTD, can be very angry, and is frequently abusive verbally (every day) and occasionally physically. He is fit, and has no ostensible idea that he has anything wrong with him. I am trying to get a regular caregiver in place, but for the past month or so since we have been living permanently in the USA, have relied on friends & family, all of whom have jobs and busy lives, to keep him company once or twice a week. Otherwise, I just go out - to Caregivers' support groups & workshops, mainly, and leave him on his own. He is physically safe, and sometimes quite enjoys time alone, but he hates seeing me leave.
The most difficult symptom for me (and probably him) to cope with is the Capgras stuff, where he thinks I am not his wife, but a look-alike impostor. This has most recently resulted in him taking my car keys and throwing me out of the house on a rainy Friday evening…Friends rescued me, and I spent the night at their house, but that meant leaving him alone all night. He was okay, if shaken in the morning, but that is not an option.
Respite, that's what I want. I have a feeling that would set me up for a while longer, but the difficulty is - how? When? Where? I am taking advice on this, and all the other short-, medium- and long-term care options, but in the meantime - how do I get through today? And tomorrow?