Hazel
One of these days I may throw the boys in the bus (figuratively not literally...well not most days) and head to the south west for a visit!!! I'm sure that the boys would be delighted to have someone else to entertain and show off for!
One thing that I find really good is how many people commented on their good behaviour at the funeral. My friend who was looking after them did have to spend a wee while drawing pictures for L to copy during the eulogy but then he couldn't hear it well. He doesn't have a right ear as he has a condition called microtia and listening in an echoey hall environment is difficult for him. But, for all he normally bounces like Tigger, he was so good and quiet that day.
Today was sad as a yet another friend left who has been staying. I am finding goodbyes quite emotional at the moment and I almost ran away. I also spoke to the Home Manager today, who has become my friend over the years. She advises me that the money we collected instead of flowers is to be put to good use, a few more soother dolls which my Mum loved and some more plants and planters for the garden patio amongst other things.
It reminded me of the night I visited and there was Mum and two of the other ladies all fighting over who was next to get a turn of the Baby. They were all so gentle with the doll, and automatically adopted techniques many wouldn't have used for years.
We are also planning a night out for ourselves at some point as her parents live not too far away!
Life is moving on but the sadness is still there, along with a loss of concentration. I find work very difficult at the moment and stare into space for far too long. I don't know how much is grief and how much is this fluey cold. But the combination, especially when I don't have enough sleep is catastrophic.
So with that I really should head to bed.
love to all
Mameeskye