Thank you Harry's daughter. Yes that's how I feel sometimes, alone! My brother is hopeless and doesn't understand and my extended family also have buried their heads in the sand
The one person who would have supported me would have been my dad, five months on after his sudden death I still miss him terribly and I can't imagine how he coped when he was alive. He shielded a lot from me I think
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Hi
I care for my dad. Who has dementia. My dad has been my mum's carer for 30yrs. (My mum doesn't have a diagnosis ).
It's taken years of going on every session or workshop I can to I suppose try and keep myself strong.
I too have lots of promised support but in reality..They do very little. My own family are supportive but sometimes it easier to just get on with things as I only end up having to deal with 2 more emotional situations. I am there for them..but it's important they understand realities of caring for a person with dementia.
I need an outlet to vent my frustrations on dementia and it comes from an avenue that you wouldn't imagine helps..I volunteer with support activities groups for people and carers with dementia.
I know people will think how does that help you emotionally?? How do you manage it..?
When helping other family with other conditions I felt we were always fighting for cures and recovery..and generally achieved some of it..
I've decided that I won't waste our precious time no matter how good or bad ...and try to make it matter.
Don't get me wrong there have been emergencies. .falls eating drinking problems overdoses..you name it and it happens...its all very sad..and would challenge the strongest of people. I'm not superhuman..and don't have all the answers..and I do have emotional times but ..I don't want my time with my dad for him to sense that people feel sorry for him or that I'm emotionally struggling.
He might not be able to communicate or notice and tell me he knows how I'm feeling..but he still feels it..and that must be horrendous seeing a daughter or son and feeling the sadness or guilt or any emotion in their heart. Knowing that people they've loved over the years and helped over the years are no where to be seen...emotionally they will feel it even if they can't communicate they hurt or anguish. .This is where much agitation and anxiety comes from...
Sorry this isn't really helping you feel better.
I just wanted to share how much helping other people is helping me.
Every time another person smiles or achieves something they can't in ordinary everyday life..I feel like shouting...see this dementia you may determine so much..and try and stop such lovely people doing everyday things..but guess what we are not giving up we are just compromising and adapting...and you didn't expect that did you!!
Everyday as you change our lives..We learn more about you....
You know nothing about us...and yes you make us sad ...and you may break our hearts....and we will shed tears and struggle ..but we will make a life count..and matter....
I wish you courage and strength. You matter too.