Just wanted to add my support and sympathy, to everyone on here, to Quilty for her generosity in starting this thread, and to Onlyme as what you have written has really touched my heart.
My mum died on 26th March. Leedslass, I too dreaded the days when I was looking after her for the last few months and hate that I did. The guilt over that is a constant, as is the hollow loss now. But I am also so angry, I don't know what about, whether it is at the illness, at other family members, at the person my mother became because she wasn't my mum for a long time before she died, or at myself.
I do find TP such a comfort. People here understand the maelstrom of emotions and feelings and never judge.
My mum died on 26th March. Leedslass, I too dreaded the days when I was looking after her for the last few months and hate that I did. The guilt over that is a constant, as is the hollow loss now. But I am also so angry, I don't know what about, whether it is at the illness, at other family members, at the person my mother became because she wasn't my mum for a long time before she died, or at myself.
I do find TP such a comfort. People here understand the maelstrom of emotions and feelings and never judge.