My dementing Mum (84) is really getting to me. I know I should feel/act more sympathetically than I do but I actually resent her and her constant demands and the way she speaks to me. Suddenly I am totally responsible for her and she orders me around (I'm 58 for god's sake) and wants to know my every move and whereabouts and I am ready to walk away. She's always been awkward (she fell out with both my brothers, who would be more than willing to help if she'd let them) over 25 years ago, long before dementia provided her with an excuse to be rude and judgemental.
Have had to go back again tonight (every night so far this week) having only left an hour before, because she couldn't get her tablets out of her dispenser. When I got there, all I did was turn it upside down and they came out. Last night she couldn't find either pair of her glasses - there they were, both side by side on her dressing table. I could go on but am asking myself when enough is enough? Am trying so hard to keep her in her own home (which is where she says she wants to be) but (selfishly) my life is rubbish. I actually feel so guilty saying that because I know she can't help it, but when do you throw the towel in? Should I even be reacting to her every demand? It wouldn't feel so bad if she was more pleasant but all she does is criticize everything I do and it's never enough.
Where do you all find the empathy that I can see in your posts? I actually don't like my mum at the moment and am finding it very difficult to not show my irritation at her.
Have just read this back and it sounds awful but am going to post it anyway because I don't know where to go next
Have had to go back again tonight (every night so far this week) having only left an hour before, because she couldn't get her tablets out of her dispenser. When I got there, all I did was turn it upside down and they came out. Last night she couldn't find either pair of her glasses - there they were, both side by side on her dressing table. I could go on but am asking myself when enough is enough? Am trying so hard to keep her in her own home (which is where she says she wants to be) but (selfishly) my life is rubbish. I actually feel so guilty saying that because I know she can't help it, but when do you throw the towel in? Should I even be reacting to her every demand? It wouldn't feel so bad if she was more pleasant but all she does is criticize everything I do and it's never enough.
Where do you all find the empathy that I can see in your posts? I actually don't like my mum at the moment and am finding it very difficult to not show my irritation at her.
Have just read this back and it sounds awful but am going to post it anyway because I don't know where to go next