I just feel like - well, I don't honestly know.
You could see Mil inflating like a balloon whilst he was talking to her - agreeing with him, yes she would go into hospital, saying all the right things - but the agitation there on her face.
I was less than polite.
I told him that I was disgusted. That he had quite probably let us in for a weekend from hell, as though Mil will more than likely forget the facts of the situation, the emotions will still be there and she will react badly. That it had been 7 or 8 months since I requested this assessment and that we had merely been pi$$ed about from pillar to post since, with nothing more than apologies and excuses. I told him that from everything I have read the inmates in the new prison being built locally would be treated with more decency than has been shown to Mil. That I wondered what was the point of a service that seems to specialise in letting people down?
As he was leaving, I told him I hoped he had a lovely holiday - I think he got the sarcasm.
I want to make a formal complaint. OH doesn't - he says it won't help. I've said, in that case, enough - that until this is sorted, I'm bailing out. He's booked emergency leave from work.
In the middle of all this, we get the news that he has passed - with absolutely flying colours - the last interviews and assessments. Its taken the shine off - as I've said, unless Mil is sorted, there is no way that I can or will feel able to look after her whilst he is away for extended training periods.
Its such a bloody mess