My poor mum passed away in the early ours of yesterday morning, aged 71.
After at least 7 years of fighting mixed dementia, upset, stress, tears, home care, care homes, I thought it might not hit me so hard when mum passed away. I always felt that I was losing my mum over a number of years and that the pain would be less, but how wrong I was. Mum changed over the last few years but she was still my mum, I loved her just the same and now she's gone the pain is unbearable - it hurts so much.
I hope I don't sound selfish because deep down I know that mum is now at peace - she watched her mum struggle with dementia and had always said to me not to let the same thing happen to her, she was a very strong supporter of 'dignity in dying' and it hurt so much to see her being spoon fed, having her pads changed and having to be hoisted in and out of a chair, day after day after day.
The care home staff were magnificent and I thank them from the bottom of my heart.
I know that mum is now at peace and reunited with my dear dad.
(dad passed away 8 years ago after a brave fight with Lieukaemia).
You are forever in my heart mum, I miss you so much, I love you, Martin xxx
After at least 7 years of fighting mixed dementia, upset, stress, tears, home care, care homes, I thought it might not hit me so hard when mum passed away. I always felt that I was losing my mum over a number of years and that the pain would be less, but how wrong I was. Mum changed over the last few years but she was still my mum, I loved her just the same and now she's gone the pain is unbearable - it hurts so much.
I hope I don't sound selfish because deep down I know that mum is now at peace - she watched her mum struggle with dementia and had always said to me not to let the same thing happen to her, she was a very strong supporter of 'dignity in dying' and it hurt so much to see her being spoon fed, having her pads changed and having to be hoisted in and out of a chair, day after day after day.
The care home staff were magnificent and I thank them from the bottom of my heart.
I know that mum is now at peace and reunited with my dear dad.
(dad passed away 8 years ago after a brave fight with Lieukaemia).
You are forever in my heart mum, I miss you so much, I love you, Martin xxx