Morning all,
Thanks for all your advice, everyone. I have started to make enquiries about what is available in bordering/close counties as AnoviceinN1 suggests - it is only enquiries at the moment, but I sort of feel that we need to find other options on a 'just in case' basis. As for what would happen to Mil if I became unable to care for her - I think that's the same for every carer, Mrsbusy, sadly
If it happened right now, then a stay, either short term or maybe (if necessary) permenant in the home she goes to for respite. And if it happens later and the behaviour is an issue, then I hope we will have been able to find somewhere reasonably close, albeit in a different county, that we have as back up. I honestly don't see the point in even considering asking the LA for help, given what they have made clear is the only available options from them, if her illness makes her behaviour worsen. Best option - I think - is to try and find somewhere where (if we did decide to go down the residential route) could care for her no matter how she deteriorates. Then - if at any stage - we do feel 'that's it', then we won't have to deal with the hellish ward and her being placed somewhere where we have little choice and which may be far away. She will be (at least for the first 12-18 months) self funding and I hope that would make it a bit easier too! I aso think its a given that the 'powers that be' are very aware that they can leave carers to cope and carry the burden of care to a massive extent, that we all do it because of love and loyalty, because we care - they take advantage of us all. Its incredibly short sighted on their part, because more support to keep someone at home would probably (certainly?) save a lot of funds in the long term - but the current economic situation means that they are only focused on saving pennies now, rather than pounds later.
Thanks for the comments on the photographs too - hard to go wrong in a place like Anglesey, felt like everywhere I looked it was worth pointing the camera, lol. Still got all the puffin Island shots to share, just trying to find the time!
Picked Mil up last night and the 'senior' grabbed me for a word. No massive problems with Mil (in terms of her upsetting or causing problems for other residents) but it seems like they are still getting the constant pestering. She's rarely still, pacing all the time and getting fixated on odd delusions which she then batters their ears about, demanding attention and a lot of reassurance. The last 3 days its started from more or less when she has arrived in the morning. Although I've sorted it for them to give her a dose of the lorazepan at lunch time (initially prescribed as a prn, which they are not allowed to give) their observation is that it doesn't touch her, makes absolutely no difference at all. A couple of the actual carers were also present, which is good, because when they speak, it gives me a really clear idea of exactly how she is. All of them expressed amazement about how stubborn she is, how she is so resistant to reassurance and distraction - as one said, its almost like she is wired to
not want to be comforted or calmed. I was a bit 'Oh-ohhhhh' at first, half expecting them to say that they couldn't cope or similar, but it seemed to emerge that no, they can cope - what they wanted was to know what else they could do to help - which, given the responses I've had from elsewhere was a bit of a shock!
Anyway, as I had asked them to keep Mil late next Tuesday (when I have that appointment at the pain clinic and won't be home till probably 6 or 7pm) they picked up on that and the upshot is that we are going to try Mil having one or two showers/baths there, every week - which will of course be a massive help to me. They have just taken on extra staff, to help with the day care 'clients' so they assured me that this wouldn't be an issue, that they would be more than able to 'fit in' sorting Mil. Bathing her at home is time consuming and can be fraught as she fusses so much - its not a 'task' that I look forward to, thats for sure - so I jumped at the chance. Hopefully starting from next week, it will take some pressure off me and - with Mils habit of suddenly grabbing me during bathtime - it will also help my back. It made me feel 100% better to have them offer help like that - especially given the lack of support from 'Adult Social Care'!
Mil, incidentally, was not amused at being asked to wait whilst we had this chat - she made quite a few rude remarks and on leaving informed me that she had 'had enough' and I was to phone and hand in her 'notice' when we got home
Last night we had intermittant delusions and a lot of confusion, but each time she started battering on about where was the 'little girl' she had brought with her, or where was her 'knitting - had I taken it?' or insisting that her son wasn't the same man as I was married to and she wanted to phone her son 'right now', I just got very firm and she subsided almost straight away each time. Oh, lots of dirty looks thrown my way and a good bit of huffing and puffing, but she did quieten down - till the next confused idea grabbed her! I should also say that the bed has been dry the last two mornings, by the way - and the only difference I can see is that both nights she was in pj's rather than nighties - so, have got 2 new pairs for her and though I can't see
why they would make a difference, I'm going to put her nighties away and stick to pjs for the moment - so fingers crossed for less washing - at least for now
Hope you all have a good day - dau off to her theatre group this morning, then we are taking Mil to see her friend this afternoon, so usual Saturday routine xxxxx