On the 5th November my husband was admitted as a permanent resident to an EMI Nursing Home with Alzheimer's and Parkinson's. He didn't want to stay there even though he was told it was just for a couple of weeks respite while I had some rest and attended my hospital appointments. When I visited the next day he didn't mention coming home, I have visited every day and he hasn't asked just says OK when I say I am going now so I haven't mentioned it either. He just looks so sad and confused when I leave I just cry all the way home. When I get back to my empty bungalow I feel as if I have thrown him out of his own home without telling him he is never coming back. I thought I would be able to have a nights sleep when I didn't have to get up between 5 and 7 times a night to him but I can't. I feel sad and lonely and just want to cry.
It's a good home apart from teething problems which I am gradually sorting out. I am worrying all the time about him I know they are looking after him but not as an individual who could read his needs as I could after nearly 66 years wed.
I feel so alone.
It's a good home apart from teething problems which I am gradually sorting out. I am worrying all the time about him I know they are looking after him but not as an individual who could read his needs as I could after nearly 66 years wed.
I feel so alone.