havent posted for a few days. ive just been getting through the days although the phone call has been the elephant in the room. weve been keeping out of each others way to a certain degree. my scooter has been fully charged so i can go out if necessary.
he is now dithering again. he doesnt want the endoscopy as he doesnt want to find out the results but he wants it for me. no not having that guilt on my head and a weapon he can throw at me anytime he wants. he doesnt want to speak to the consultant at phone appt at 5pm. which leaves that one up to me. i feel like running anywhere but thats the cowards way out. i will be there. i have not slept great and my stomach is churning.
hes at mens sheds this morning so had a break. not sure what mood he will come in but he has to finish defrosting the freezer. even my knitting is suffering. took it back 3 rows as i wasnt concentrating. hes looking to me to be his strength and deal with things for him. wish me good luck as i dont think this will easy.
he is now dithering again. he doesnt want the endoscopy as he doesnt want to find out the results but he wants it for me. no not having that guilt on my head and a weapon he can throw at me anytime he wants. he doesnt want to speak to the consultant at phone appt at 5pm. which leaves that one up to me. i feel like running anywhere but thats the cowards way out. i will be there. i have not slept great and my stomach is churning.
hes at mens sheds this morning so had a break. not sure what mood he will come in but he has to finish defrosting the freezer. even my knitting is suffering. took it back 3 rows as i wasnt concentrating. hes looking to me to be his strength and deal with things for him. wish me good luck as i dont think this will easy.