Peter.....please understand these are only my thoughts and I am by no means an expert....but
I feel that maybe in a way you are afraid to accept the situation and almost feel you deserve to suffer because of Bridget’s illness and how she is no longer the person she once was, you feel like if she is suffering then you have to also!!
If you have a reasonable day, you feel guilty for it, which upsets you and sets you back.
This disease is awful it steals ordinary lives and dreams, alters how people live their lives.
You have to accept and try to take comfort that Bridget is very well cared for and is settled as best she can be in the home.
It’s easier said than done, but I do think you need professional help now moving forward, you need and deserve help to ease this incessant hurt, please don’t struggle on without talking to your Dr.
Sometimes no matter how hard we try, we haven’t got a big enough stick to bash that guilt monster that sits on our shoulder tormenting us, and who just won’t go away....sometimes we need help to do it.
Take care x
I feel that maybe in a way you are afraid to accept the situation and almost feel you deserve to suffer because of Bridget’s illness and how she is no longer the person she once was, you feel like if she is suffering then you have to also!!
If you have a reasonable day, you feel guilty for it, which upsets you and sets you back.
This disease is awful it steals ordinary lives and dreams, alters how people live their lives.
You have to accept and try to take comfort that Bridget is very well cared for and is settled as best she can be in the home.
It’s easier said than done, but I do think you need professional help now moving forward, you need and deserve help to ease this incessant hurt, please don’t struggle on without talking to your Dr.
Sometimes no matter how hard we try, we haven’t got a big enough stick to bash that guilt monster that sits on our shoulder tormenting us, and who just won’t go away....sometimes we need help to do it.
Take care x