Hi
Just leaving the home after seeing Bridget for about 10 minute. Just parked up to calm myself down.
Damn it , as it never gets better. The heartache never goes away. As soon as i see her through the home window and see my darling wife looking at me wondering who i am, my throat tightens and i feel the tears coming. I suppose the constant reminder of who she was through seeing her like this will only lessen when she’s gone ( or me, who knows!). And then a different grieving will be in my life.
I wish sometimes there was something dramatic i could do to move away from the pain more of the time. But it’s just getting through each day, one at a time, because there is no dramatic substitute for the love you’ve lost. And it’s for me, after all, because i’m heartbroken for me because Bridget is oblivious ( i believe and hope) of this kind of torment and unhappiness. For that i’m comforted, because i love her and wouldn’t want her to be heartbroken like me.
I know i speak for many fellow sufferers who have lost so much. My heart goes out to you.
Peter
Just leaving the home after seeing Bridget for about 10 minute. Just parked up to calm myself down.
Damn it , as it never gets better. The heartache never goes away. As soon as i see her through the home window and see my darling wife looking at me wondering who i am, my throat tightens and i feel the tears coming. I suppose the constant reminder of who she was through seeing her like this will only lessen when she’s gone ( or me, who knows!). And then a different grieving will be in my life.
I wish sometimes there was something dramatic i could do to move away from the pain more of the time. But it’s just getting through each day, one at a time, because there is no dramatic substitute for the love you’ve lost. And it’s for me, after all, because i’m heartbroken for me because Bridget is oblivious ( i believe and hope) of this kind of torment and unhappiness. For that i’m comforted, because i love her and wouldn’t want her to be heartbroken like me.
I know i speak for many fellow sufferers who have lost so much. My heart goes out to you.
Peter