My mom had been in a care home for almost a year. I looked after her and worked full time for many years before that.
I visited the home 5 or 6 times a week and my brother went once a week.
Mom knew me and my son but was increasingly challenging to me and care staff, but sometimes funny too. She was well loved.
I hadn't seen mom since 13th march with the lockdown. I called the home every day to see how she was but it wasnt the same as seeing her, hugging her and telling her I love her.
She was admitted to hospital with a bowel obstruction and covid in early April. I was not able to see her in hospital. She came out 2 weeks later having tested negative for the virus.
She refused food and drinks and apparently stopped speaking.
She fell asleep last Wednesday morning.
I was allowed to see her Tuesday night for an hour or so at the home. She gripped my hand at first and looked straight at me. She then started pushing my hand away. I told her how much I love her and that I would never have abandoned her at her time of need if it wasnt for this lockdown. She was barely 5 stone and it was shocking to see her like that. My heart is broken. She passed early on Wednesday morning after I had seen her the night before.
The funeral is 4th june and we are limited to 10 people.
I miss her so much. She has been my life for so long.
I'm going on like life continues but I'm totally broken and ache inside with the pain.
Sorry it's a long post- but I'm sure others are in a similar situation
Thank you for listening x x
I visited the home 5 or 6 times a week and my brother went once a week.
Mom knew me and my son but was increasingly challenging to me and care staff, but sometimes funny too. She was well loved.
I hadn't seen mom since 13th march with the lockdown. I called the home every day to see how she was but it wasnt the same as seeing her, hugging her and telling her I love her.
She was admitted to hospital with a bowel obstruction and covid in early April. I was not able to see her in hospital. She came out 2 weeks later having tested negative for the virus.
She refused food and drinks and apparently stopped speaking.
She fell asleep last Wednesday morning.
I was allowed to see her Tuesday night for an hour or so at the home. She gripped my hand at first and looked straight at me. She then started pushing my hand away. I told her how much I love her and that I would never have abandoned her at her time of need if it wasnt for this lockdown. She was barely 5 stone and it was shocking to see her like that. My heart is broken. She passed early on Wednesday morning after I had seen her the night before.
The funeral is 4th june and we are limited to 10 people.
I miss her so much. She has been my life for so long.
I'm going on like life continues but I'm totally broken and ache inside with the pain.
Sorry it's a long post- but I'm sure others are in a similar situation
Thank you for listening x x