Hi everyone,
I was a member on here a while ago when my mum was first diagnosed with dementia..
A bit of background..
When I was 17 and my mum was 47 she was diagnosed with Dementia. I would say she changed pretty quickly and dramatically.. fast forward 10years.. i am 27 and my mum 47.
January 2nd this year I had a phone call to travel to newcastle asap because my mum wasnt going to survive. She had been unwell over christmas but I was in denial (and 8months pregnant at the time) and didnt believe it. I made the 4hour trip to Newcastle and spent 5days sleeping on the hospital floor with my dad and brothers watching my mum die. She lost so much weight. On Jan 7th at 1:25am she took her final breathe. A part of me died that day. I travelled 4 hours back to Leicester to have myself and my unborn baby checked over. I reach 9months pregnant and travelled back to newcastle for my mums funeral. I said my goodbyes at the chapel of rest abd gave her a kiss.. the funeral arrived and we gave her a beautiful send of. We spread mums ashes the next day where her mum was spread and then i travelled back home. I was in an out of hospital and had no time to catch my breathe. 3weeks after mum died, I gave birth to my daughter. She is so beautiful, so happy and so content. I left hospital the next day and got told my grandma had also died of advanced dementia the day I had ny daughter. We recently celebrated mums life on the 6month anniversary of her death.
I feel like everyone around me have been able to mourn. I am still only able to get 5minutes here and there inbetween being a single mum. My heart is completely broken. I can't get the visions of her dying out of my head. I am so exhausted of always trying to be happy. I'm sorry. I don't know what to do xx
I was a member on here a while ago when my mum was first diagnosed with dementia..
A bit of background..
When I was 17 and my mum was 47 she was diagnosed with Dementia. I would say she changed pretty quickly and dramatically.. fast forward 10years.. i am 27 and my mum 47.
January 2nd this year I had a phone call to travel to newcastle asap because my mum wasnt going to survive. She had been unwell over christmas but I was in denial (and 8months pregnant at the time) and didnt believe it. I made the 4hour trip to Newcastle and spent 5days sleeping on the hospital floor with my dad and brothers watching my mum die. She lost so much weight. On Jan 7th at 1:25am she took her final breathe. A part of me died that day. I travelled 4 hours back to Leicester to have myself and my unborn baby checked over. I reach 9months pregnant and travelled back to newcastle for my mums funeral. I said my goodbyes at the chapel of rest abd gave her a kiss.. the funeral arrived and we gave her a beautiful send of. We spread mums ashes the next day where her mum was spread and then i travelled back home. I was in an out of hospital and had no time to catch my breathe. 3weeks after mum died, I gave birth to my daughter. She is so beautiful, so happy and so content. I left hospital the next day and got told my grandma had also died of advanced dementia the day I had ny daughter. We recently celebrated mums life on the 6month anniversary of her death.
I feel like everyone around me have been able to mourn. I am still only able to get 5minutes here and there inbetween being a single mum. My heart is completely broken. I can't get the visions of her dying out of my head. I am so exhausted of always trying to be happy. I'm sorry. I don't know what to do xx