Good evening young at heart, I'm so sorry, it sounds like your really struggling which means you definitely go ahead with the respite, you so deserve the break and have time for JUST YOU, doing what you want when you want. My hubby is due to come home on Tuesday but the rest home is advising me to let him stay for another week, they can see how upset and worried I am at the thought of him coming home, I feel sick and anxious. I'm always so scared when he tries to walk about indoors as he always falls and it's only a matter of time before he hurts himself badly. He seems to shuffle about a bit better in the care home but he does have someone with him all the time, they won't t even let me walk with him on my own. All the carers tell me at different times how happy he seems and he's chatty and smiley, but he's grumpy and hardly talks to me when I'm there, which is most days. It's very upsetting, but I've thought for a long time recently the last few months that he doesn't like me very much, he says he loves me when I tell him that I love him but I don't think he actually likes me. If that makes sense, and I'm REALLY ashamed to say that recently I've been thinking I don't want him to come home, and that's SO SO VERY BAD. But all my anxiety and palpitations and continues sick feeling and sleepless nights have a completely gone until the last few days when I think of him coming home. I'm actually crying while I write this because I know I sound really cruel.Hopefully when and if he comes home I'll feel better towards him, I must or
In sickness and health meant nothing in our wedding vows and our wedding vows were sacred all those 57 yrs ago, even though he hasn't given me a great 57yrs.
That's enough of me going on and feeling sorry for myself,
Young at heart, please start to look forward to your time for you, to relax, have fun with your friends and family and sleep well whenever you want to, you never know your OH may like it there and enjoy the break also, then you will feel happy knowing he's enjoying his little holiday. Take care of yourself, let me know how you get on.