....but I tell myself that at least she is clean, well fed and safe, and has constant care and company, which couldn't be achieved when she was at home. Sometimes we have to take the crumbs of comfort that we can get, and acknowledge that some people do settle better than others.
Lindy70, thankyou for your warm thoughts, this could have only have come from someone who 'had been there'.
Everyone says my MIL will settle down but I have a gut feeling that she won't. What we are hoping for is for her to 'settle a bit' if you know what I mean. I don't expect her to ever say she likes it there or that she doesn't want to go home; this is just not in her DNA. If she could just get a little bit of peace in the knowledge that there is always someone there for her and she is safe, clean and cared for (as you quoted). I hate the fact she has all those things and yet is searching for her son, night and day. If this eased off it would be enough. We could take her out and enjoy some time with her other than just looking after her as we did before. There are lots of family who want to visit her and it could be enjoyable for her. My MIL is quite a private person and hasn't really mixed a lot in her life other than with her family. She has always hated gatherings of any sort all her life so she isn't going to change Alzheimer's or no Alzheimer's. As this is all so new to us can you let me know - if it isn't too upsetting how your mum behaves when you visit.
That's my mum to a 'T' @DM1 ......mum was and is a caring, empathic person who prefers one to one interaction. So that's one thing we've tried to emphasise to staff, with a little bit of success. Mum is often too disruptive to sit in the lounge, and then they look after her in her own room, and frequently pop in and out for little chats. Also we found and paid for a private OT to visit mum weekly for about six months, to give that intensive one to one that she needs. She made up a file of things that interested mum, 'finish the saying' games etc (eg 'quick as a ......(flash)' to help staff connect with her. Not ideal but the best we could do.
In answer to your question, how does mum behave when I visit? Well, obviously that's varied over the years. In general, however, she's relieved to see me, still regarding me somehow as someone who might be able to rescue her from her situation. What I mean is, it may be a lack of comprehension, but for whatever reason, she has never 'blamed' me for arranging the care home placement.
In the early days I tried to make my visits as pleasant and social as possible, took pot plants, painted her nails, listened to music, read poetry, did quizzes and crossword puzzles....Despite not wanting to be in the home, she never wanted to go out, not even into the garden.
Over the years, mum has become unable to enjoy even these low key activities, so mainly I just sit with her, make conversation about domestic things like drying washing, planting geraniums etc and she nods along while I hold her hand. The other day as I left I said 'Love you, mum', as I always do, and she replied 'I know'. I found that a great comfort.
Between my visits (and sometimes during them), mum continues to shout a lot and staff say she is only comforted by the reassurance that 'Lindy will come soon'. It's a responsibility, but one I've more or less come to terms with. I now visit three to four times a week, for about an hour. I'd love to do more, but it's not fair on the rest of my family.
I hope you find this of some help and that your husband in particular is reassured by seeing his mum. It's awful thinking of someone you love being in distress like that, and wondering whether or how you could alleviate it.
Wishing you all the best.
Love
Lindy xx