My condolences, Kikki2. You mum is at peace and you did everything you could for her. Still, the emotional shock is great. Don't be surprised if you do weird things, or find you just can't do anything at all. I feel I'm in limbo because all the structure has gone from my days. sometimes I just want to sleep; others I'm flooded with anger over everything that happened to my lovely husband. Yesterday they collected all the equipment - the bed, walking frames etc. It seems so terribly final, as if I'm tidying him away. I didn't realise what a comfort it was until it had gone.
So be kind to yourself. You did your very best for your mom. Concentrate on that.
Thank you so much.
I’ve not done much for nearly 3 weeks & then the last week while my mum was on end of life care then I have hardly done anything business wise although I did sell something yesterday & went to the Post Office on auto pilot. The guy at the Post Office has seen the article in the local press over my mum’s last request to stroke a cat & before he got in to ask how she was, I told him she had passed away earlier. That was probably a bit weird but as I am self employed then I need to earn the pennies & pay the rent & bills. X