My husband is totally obsessed with himself. The only time he speaks to me is if he wants to talk about something relating to him.
He constantly says I need to talk to you. It is always about his tablets, his bowels, his hospital related details, of which there are a number. So many things, but all about him, never me or our life and home.
He goes over the same thing over and over. I look at him to see if he is joking, but he isn’t, he just repeats what must come into his mind.
He can’t sort anything out, or think things through anymore.
He looks at the calendar on his iPad literally dozens of times a day.
He has totally lost interest in any conversation with me. He can host on the phone to his brother or if we get a visitor. I try to introduce topics but he isn’t interested, or is it that he can’t think it through?
He finds fault with everything I do. Everything is my fault. I mean everything. I constantly have to bite my tongue as I want to stand up for myself, but it leads to an argument and then he gets nasty. If I try to verbally defend myself he gets very aggressive.
His health is a mess.
But our marriage is very one sided. I’m just a servant in this house. The thought that this life could go on for years fills me with sadness and fear.
I know I’m a strong woman emotionally. Not so much physically these days.
I don’t think I can live this life for both of us, or is it that I don’t want to? But what choice do I have? I know it is too soon to consider care.
I’m terrified of something happening to me. What would happen to my husband?
I know I keep repeating myself on TP, but sometimes I feel overwhelmed.
Another waffling post, apologies to anyone reading this...
Love B xx
He constantly says I need to talk to you. It is always about his tablets, his bowels, his hospital related details, of which there are a number. So many things, but all about him, never me or our life and home.
He goes over the same thing over and over. I look at him to see if he is joking, but he isn’t, he just repeats what must come into his mind.
He can’t sort anything out, or think things through anymore.
He looks at the calendar on his iPad literally dozens of times a day.
He has totally lost interest in any conversation with me. He can host on the phone to his brother or if we get a visitor. I try to introduce topics but he isn’t interested, or is it that he can’t think it through?
He finds fault with everything I do. Everything is my fault. I mean everything. I constantly have to bite my tongue as I want to stand up for myself, but it leads to an argument and then he gets nasty. If I try to verbally defend myself he gets very aggressive.
His health is a mess.
But our marriage is very one sided. I’m just a servant in this house. The thought that this life could go on for years fills me with sadness and fear.
I know I’m a strong woman emotionally. Not so much physically these days.
I don’t think I can live this life for both of us, or is it that I don’t want to? But what choice do I have? I know it is too soon to consider care.
I’m terrified of something happening to me. What would happen to my husband?
I know I keep repeating myself on TP, but sometimes I feel overwhelmed.
Another waffling post, apologies to anyone reading this...
Love B xx