Hi there,
Have just joined this forum after a tough day with my OH who is 18 years my senior and has Parkinson’s and now mild dementia. Am acutely aware that I/ we are at the beginning of what could turn out to be a long and tough journey ( “ adventure”?) on a road that is well trodden by all those ahead of us, but I take courage and inspiration from reading posts such as yours which describe the ongoing love affair between you and your OH despite such v changed circumstances...so moving and beautiful.
I have dropped from full time work in a Camhs team , to two days, but even that after disturbed nights is proving hard , esp with colleagues being the source of additional stress. We are not at the care home crossroads yet though a very supportive neighbour regularly reminds me that it is an option and that there is no shame going down that path. In my darker sadder moments I do think that care staff in a good carehome would offer better care than I do when I am tired and stressed and upset at how I am being treated, And would provide much needed stimulation..but as I say we are not at that point yet. As a former and very skilled artist, I arranged someone to come to engage with my husband in some creative activity,( and company) but after only two sessions his response was that he felt patronised by my having set it up and did not want it to continue.
I find it a lonely existence, not because I am alone ( as a natural introvert I don’t get as much time to be on my own as I would like) but because my husband and lover is no longer the man I have been in love with and who I would have turned to for support, comfort and wise counsel in times of difficulty, but who I can can no longer do so with. I try every day, all the time , to accept and appreciate what we have now rather than regret the absence of what could have been, but it is hard.
I take comfort from knowing that others share the same feelings and experiences...which is why such forums as this are invaluable.
Welcome and so good to hear from you and thank you for your lovely words. We are both mental health professionals, sweetheart, not that it makes dealing with dementia any easier. It is such a sadness that things we arrange (like the art) to benefit our loved ones are rarely successful for long. I used to feel confounded in every positive thing I did and marvelled at dementia's power to subvert. So good to hear from you. with love, GeraldinexHi there,
Have just joined this forum after a tough day with my OH who is 18 years my senior and has Parkinson’s and now mild dementia. Am acutely aware that I/ we are at the beginning of what could turn out to be a long and tough journey ( “ adventure”?) on a road that is well trodden by all those ahead of us, but I take courage and inspiration from reading posts such as yours which describe the ongoing love affair between you and your OH despite such v changed circumstances...so moving and beautiful.
I have dropped from full time work in a Camhs team , to two days, but even that after disturbed nights is proving hard , esp with colleagues being the source of additional stress. We are not at the care home crossroads yet though a very supportive neighbour regularly reminds me that it is an option and that there is no shame going down that path. In my darker sadder moments I do think that care staff in a good carehome would offer better care than I do when I am tired and stressed and upset at how I am being treated, And would provide much needed stimulation..but as I say we are not at that point yet. As a former and very skilled artist, I arranged someone to come to engage with my husband in some creative activity,( and company) but after only two sessions his response was that he felt patronised by my having set it up and did not want it to continue.
I find it a lonely existence, not because I am alone ( as a natural introvert I don’t get as much time to be on my own as I would like) but because my husband and lover is no longer the man I have been in love with and who I would have turned to for support, comfort and wise counsel in times of difficulty, but who I can can no longer do so with. I try every day, all the time , to accept and appreciate what we have now rather than regret the absence of what could have been, but it is hard.
I take comfort from knowing that others share the same feelings and experiences...which is why such forums as this are invaluable.