Dear
@MaddieJ
I really relate to what you say, how you feel. It is so sad. I never know what to expect. Sometimes he is as nice as pie, then he is horrible, ranting and swearing in my face.
I too think that I would at least have a life of my own if he went into a care home. But the times when he is more like he used to be I think how can I possibly contemplate that. There is nothing wrong. Then he turns.... and off we go again. This never ending roller coaster that we can’t get off.
Guilt is a major problem for us carers. I don’t think a day goes by that I don’t shed buckets of tears. But not in front of my husband. I have done, but he just gets aggressive and accuses me of turning the waterworks on for sympathy.
I never thought of my husband as cruel and spiteful, but he can be now, but how long do we have to say well its the dementia talking.
Thinking of you, take care, B xx