Hi
@Jezzer, after your post on this thread today (which showed as a notification for me), I have read back through Kindred's thread to see how you are and how your Mum is doing. What an awful, scary rollercoaster you are on. A rollercoaster that never stops, does it? I so empathize with you Jezzer, it is a heartbreaking 'ride' and we have to adapt and adapt and adapt again as the illness takes it's course. The strain on the emotions can be exhausting and sadly, even if tears come they tend to bring no relief. I'm so sorry you are having such a difficult time. Somewhere inside her, your Mum will be feeling the love you have for her even if she can not respond in the way you would wish. Of this I am completely certain. When my own Mum was in recovery after surgery in hospital a week or so ago, she was still asleep after 2 hours. The nurses came to get me and stood over Mum, saying "wake up N*, time to wake up now" in very loud voices. Mum, curled up on her side, did not respond. They said they would just let her sleep on for the time being. When the nurses left the bed, I sat down at Mum's bedside and very quietly whispered "Mum". Her eyes shot open and she awoke immediately, albeit groggily. If that isn't love, I don't know what is. That is still there in your Mum too and I use this example of my own, only to give you encouragement that no matter what, love is always recognised in the heart even when the brain can no longer make sense of it. Sending you a hug x