Does anyone else feel angry that they're loved one has dementia ? my lovely mum has it and I look around at ladies her age or older happily going about their business and think why my mum why not you wrong I know. Rant over !
Yes I feel the same. My dad was a wonderful, kind, caring man all his life never gave a thought to himself alwYs others, he’s the eldest of 8 so got used to caring for others early on. I look at the photos of him as a dashing young RAF recruit thinking of the brilliant life that lay ahead of him and then this I loathe this disease it destroys your loved one and brings those that care for them to the brink. I feel it’s so unfair what did he do to deserve this. I’ve recently started sorting my dads house out and I’m bitter so much so I can’t bear to have any of the heirlooms around me. Too many memories. I was never like that before. Why would I want to be reminded of such a sad end to a wonderful life. It’s as if it was all for nothing. Dads in a home now, hates it and I feel angry we’ve been denied happy years at the end of his life.Does anyone else feel angry that they're loved one has dementia ? my lovely mum has it and I look around at ladies her age or older happily going about their business and think why my mum why not you wrong I know. Rant over !
You have written the words I only dare to think.. I feel angry that the dementia is magnifying his foibles which I always hated and now trigger me.
Fair point and I think a lot of the enotions felt depends on the relationship and how the pwd was pre dementiaI'm going to go against the general grain (so far) here...but I feel angry that my father has dementia and I have to deal with it after all the years of having to deal with his narcissistic, functioning alcoholic, demeaning attitude/beliefs/behaviour/comments. He's my dad and I love him on some level, plus he's a human being/close family who I don't want to see neglected. I battle daily with what I WANT to do and what I SHOULD do. I fight and challenge health professionals for his care and medical needs.
But I still feel so angry that I've been put in this position. I feel angry that the dementia is magnifying his foibles which I always hated and now trigger me. I feel angry that I thought it was a good idea to get LPOA, because that is now a millstone around my neck with him phoning me multiple times a day demanding money to load onto 'adult' chat sites (which aren't legit ones!), and nothing I (or siblings) say will persuade him that he CANNOT just spend the rent or carer money on it, nor can I (we) placate him. I should have just got him to pay for a funeral plan and then just left him to it. Perhaps the professionals would have taken his illness seriously a little sooner if he'd stopped paying his rent and care visit fees...!
I also feel angry and sad when I see on Facebook the people my father worked with, or my friends' parents, going about all 'normal' and spritely, on holidays, treating their grandchildren, making plans, etc. Some of them are still working and highly respected in their field(s). My father? He shares inappropriate (and sometimes graphic) links on Facebook, and doesn't realise, remember, or care that he's done that.
I did carry on with the rant but decided to delete as I could be here all day. Suffice to say I am sad and angry that my father has dementia, but not as sad and angry I would be had he been a beautiful loving kind caring person prior to the illness. So I feel sad and angry for you all.
Sorry for the rant, but I've tried telling the couple of friends I have left, and all I get is "but he's your dad, you're always gonna love your dad"...which does not help or reassure at all.